Simple and Clean - Burning Passion. =]

2007-02-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

WoOOOoooo!

My last post in this blog!

Can you believe it?!?!

Weisheng did something to show his Obedience to God!

He deleted all the games he had in his computer!

Oh gosh, can you imagine it? Do you know how hard it is to take this step of faith for Him?

How can he live without computer games in his life?

He has been playing games since the age of 6 years old!

Now he has finally and completely place everything at the feet of Jesus!

So amazing, so wonderful, so beautifully loved!

Thank You Lord, You moved in me, You gave me courage, You let me seek refuge, You cover me with your grace, your compassion, your mercy! How great You can be Lord. You saved me from the darkness, You show me the Light. You called me, and now your faithful servant is here. Giving all, giving completely unto You alone... Only You ALONE!

~Farewell Blogger.com~

2007-01-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hey! New blogskin! credited to Mindy for helping me choose. haha. Though I have afew up my sleeves, and wanting to put them up but still, I respect Mindy's choice! It's nice isn't it? A throne so worthy of God's majesty. A throne so high that no words could express, no thoughts could imagine. (:

This is going to be a short post. Yes a short one. Was scanning through my devotional guide and yes I found something to do with Being Reconciled. I was very touched by God's amazing words. It's about restoring relationships. Jesus did not include an excepton clause for our reconciliation. If the person is an enemy, Jesus said to love him(Matt. 5:44). If he is to persecutes you, you are to pray for him(v.44). If she pubilicly humiliates you, you are not to retaliate(v.39). If someone takes advantage of you, you are to give even more than he asks(v.41). Jesus taught us to deny ourselves when coming before the throne of God. His concern wasn't about His disicples being treated fairly or not but that they show unconditional love to others regardless of how they were being treated. Don't comfort yourself with the thought of "God knows that I tried to make things right, but my enemy refused." God's word does not say "Try to be reconciled, but Be reconciled."

I thank God for all these, because it made me grow closer with Him. For all the disputes, arguements or even hatred and such. I'm glad that it did not discourage me with my walk with Jesus. I'm thankful that it made me even want to praise God for who He is and what He had done on me.

Come to think of it, I'm extremly caution with my words nowadays. I guess that it's because I don't want to hurt others in the process of being too out-spoken or speaking aimlessly. I know thru this time of being moulded, I hurt others with my prideful words, my stubbornness and my one-sided thinking. I know it's wrong for me to do this, for I know this is what that is not pleasing in His sight. God opposes the Proud but gives grace to the Humble.(James 4:6). I will in the future, speak with righteousness and also words spoken with the thoughts of going thru my mind.

PS: I also want to thank God for using me. This sunday I can join the powerkids ministry in hope of bringing more unconditional love to others. I want to do this for this is what the disciples are doing, cause I know it's time for me to share my love with the kids. (:

2007-01-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

Hello blogstalkers. Haha, had some spare time so why not blog huh? (:

What about me, oh been going through my lazy afternoons around like nobody's business. Haha. These few days don't have work again, cause boss went on vacation. Ahh, so unstable. Very on and off. Have a feeling of looking up for another job. Any intro-s? (:

Come to think of it, I'm quite fasicnated by disney stuffs. Haha, I'm not sure why but whenever I see something to do with disney things, I will be captured by it's presence. I was listening to Mervin's CD, Disney Magic. It's a collection of all time favourite disney shows. It's nice, touching songs with a sense of closeness.

One I came across was by Kenny Loggins - Your heart will lead you home.

Sunny days and starry nights and lazy afternoons
You're counting castles in the clouds and humming little tunes.
But somehow right before your eyes the sun fades away,
Everything is different and everything has changed

If you feel lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home

Funny how a photograph
Can take you back in time
To places and races that you thought you'd left behind
Trying to remind you that you're not the only one
That no-one is an island when all is said and done

If you feel lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home

There'll come a day when you're losing your way
And you won't know where you belong
They say that home is where the heart is
So follow your heart and know that you can't go wrong.

If you feel lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you ... home....

Great song huh? It touched me, really. Guess whenever I feel lost, I will be reminded of this song. That home is where our heart belongs. Anyone who wants to listen to this song let me know ok, I will send you thru msn. (:

Apart from God, musics are simply just part of my life, without it I guess it does make a difference. (:

Blog another time~ To be continued.

2007-01-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

Wow. It's been 2 weeks since I last blogged. Haha. Sorry for any inconvience caused. (:

What have I been busy with lately? Guess everyone knows it already! Haha. MAPLE! A growing level 50 bandit-sin~ Finally reached 50. I'm actually quite happy I can reach in such a short period of time. Thank God for everything. He has really been so GOOD to weisheng. haha.weisheng thank God for all the prayers that were answered, all the strength to carry on. for simply EVERYTHING. (:

This post should be a short one i guess. I'm tired! haha. finally tired eh. Just some few words for people.

ximin : hey, i'm not sure whether you will read my blog anot. If you ever come across this, please read it. yes I want to talk to you. I know you haven't been feeling very good lately. I'm not sure why, maybe I know but ya I really hope you are okay. Just to want to say Thank You so much for everything. For every single thing you gave me. I know i haven't been giving you much, not treating you good enough, whileas others get more of what you should deserve. I'm sorry. I know I'm at wrong. I will be trying ok? But first I hope you can come church, it's been really long since you last came. God is waiting all right? (: lets go out soon! Miss those times. haha.

CARYN QUAH : YES it's YOU! horRIBLE! Haha.You call me blog den i surely will blog one. Waiting for you to ask me blog only. hahaha. Ya also want to take this chance to tell you that you are such a blessing in my life. Whether it is basketball, going out shopping, talking on the phone or whatever, I'm really so happy to have you around. I know sometimes I always say you "whatever" "whatever", but i'm honestly just kidding only ok? You know right? Haha. Like those times where we really joke, laugh like crazy. And also those times that you really share your story with me. I'm so thankful for you! (:

Joy : yaya I read your blog about the marriage thingy already. So cool. But so unrealistic. Haha. just kidding. it's really a nice plan out. (: Hope you can find your prince charming soon ah! hahaha. =p Oh ya why i never update pictures in my blog, is because I don't have any pictures in my computer. hahaha. Only desktop wallpapers. You want? haha.

Basketball Kakis : I AM IN NEED OF BASKETBALL. Haha. I'm really lacking of excerise ya. Lets please organize some bball games to play man. Missing those times when we play like crazy. Cya guys soon!

MAPLE Kakis : YO! haha, you all should know who you are. Don't have to say names right. Yes I'm finally level 50 and I promise to create a guild when I am lv 50 right! It's about time! I need people to create it with me, at least 5 to come online with me together and create. Lets make a time where we can come together and have fun! (: CYA ALL really SOON. haha.

Can't talk about everyone la. haha if not tonight no need sleep. Ya guess I will be signing off already. I'm tired, exhausted, famished, addicted and crazily in LOVE with GOD. (:

Banana a.k.a Shepherdx Out~ bye.

2006-12-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

Today i managed to wake myself up from a tendious sleep with that fever burning on my head. Went for work at the time of like 8am? I was stoning badly, trying to recover myself from that sleepy sleepy gong gong look. Lets not talk about what happened last night. Maybe it's just another trial. Went to work normally as usual, though i still have that little bit of germs fighting in my body but still i'm fine! praise God for this.

Work was fine, pretty much things to do, and thanks to Sulwyn!! really, i was feeling very restless in the afternoon when i was about to go for lunch. and then she called! Oh my, thank you Sulwyn really, you won't understand how much it means to give someone a call of concern. It really means alot. Though I can't make it out with you for lunch, but i know you do understand right? (: Thank you for being just so different. after that call, i was immediately snapped out of my lerthagicness. Wow, much refreshed. after lunch, i managed to finish all of my work for today and i'm feeling a sense of satisfaction. A feeling of something done to Honour Him, only.

On my way back home, I took out the book I brought out with me this morning. It's "The Heavenly Man" given from pastor Shern. This is one of the book which really grasped my attention when I was wandering around Life Bookshop in Jurong point. Nevertheless, God send someone to get this for me! How wonderful our Lord can be. Thank you so much pastor Shern. I was pondering, will this book be a challenge for me? Because my english isn't of any standard. Haha. I can't imagine if like 75% of the words I'm reading, is those that I can't understand. Oh my, what am I'm gonna do? But praise the Lord, I still took the first step and open the magnificent book. From the preface, foreword and the introduction, I can see that this book wasn't as different as I thought it would be. It was wonderfully interesting, though some are profound but I still catch the meaning of it. (:

One of the line I love was this, "It's not Great man who change the world, but Weak man in the hands of a Great God."
Beautifully described isn't it? Heh. (:

This is my beautiful day. Can't wait for another day of tommorrow! It's YOUTH CAMP AFTERGLOW tommrrow. Oh my, I'm seriously waiting for this day to arrive. Finally! Haha. Randomly, I miss Youth Camp again. ):

PS: Mummy bought me a addidas shorts and a nice straight cut jeans! Ohoh, Love mummy lots lots!!! Haha, it's really one of a rare time she gets something for me!! It's been so long.......!! Still, I love you mummy. (:

I'm not ready. You ain't either.

2006-12-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

hey! it's Christmas! haha, i'm late. but ya MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone. it's JESUS's Birthday!

simply love last night's candle light service. It was simply amazing. Never had imagine something like this before. Fabulous! the worship songs, the short preaching of pastor Shern, the enthuiasm of people streaming into Bethel, the joy and the laughters of people rejoicing in the house of God. The FOOD, though I didn't eat much. the photo takings, the giving out of cards! and many many more. haha. Thank GOD everything for what has came last night. It's just so fantastic! (:

One thing I ponder most was what paster Shern had said. What have YOU really done for JESUS this year? What were YOU doing on Christmas day? Sometimes we are simply too busy, or even too focused on the unneccesary stuffs instead of the most important thing in our life, GOD. We could be too focused on writing cards, spending the late nights rushing through all the cards, the decorations and thinking of a way on what to say or write to them. Actually I was wondering, is this how it should be done? Is this really what we should do? Spending the time serving the people instead of GOD. Did we neglect GOD, as we put too much time on the cards, forgetting that it wasn't the people's birthday instead of JESUS's? I'm quite curious, about those that did not write. Is it that they are more focused on GOD, that they wouldp rather not spend this time to write, or is it that they are simply too lazy to even write? There's always a two way side to think eh? How true. Maybe everyone has a reason for something. (:

PS: Thank You everyone for the cards. (:

To LOVE or not to.

BANANA out.

2006-12-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

aiya i'm puzzled by why everytime I ask people for basketball games, they would ask me "who" is going, "who" is playing? Actually do we really need to care so much? Does it even matters so much who is playing or who isn't? I just don't get it. Sometimes I ask that question too, how come huh? Why are we asking that as the first question? Are we expecting that someone special to turn up and play, or are we not expecting someone who should not appear? Do we really know? Ask yourself this next time when you ask someone that question again. Maybe we should put ourselves in the shoes of the person organizing a game or something. Imagine if the organizer asks 20 people to come along and play basketball, and the 20 people asked the same question. "Who is going?" "Who is playing?" den how? Do you expect him to reply every single one of them the 19 people's name? He will take at least 1 hour to finish replying everyone lah. Think about it. How does it feel to be in that suitation? Not funny anymore right? Sometimes we tend to think it the easy way, but we never know how tough it is to even get started with. That is why I say playing alone is the best.
or maybe not alone, but with God.

edited : what is taught in youth camp? Slow to anger, abounding in Love.

2006-12-19T03:16:00.000+08:00

Edited. My fault, shouldn't have started all these. Words still better left unsaid.

When The Music Fades. - Sonic Flood

When the music fades, all is stripped away.
everyone simply comes.
Longing just to breathe something that is worth that would bless your heart.
I will bring you more than a song for a song in itself
It's not what you have required
You search much deeper within through the way things appear.
You're looking into my heart....

I'm coming back to the Heart of Worship
It's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus.
I'm sorry Lord for the things I have made it.
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus.

King of endless worth
No one could express
how much you deserve
though I'm weak and old
all I have is Yours.
every single breath.

emmmm, it's all about You, JESUS!

2006-12-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

~Unfailing Love

Keeping my focus only on Jesus. He is only one that can grant me Love that no one could. What is Love in human-earthly world? What is so great about it? What is it that prevents us from the walk with Him, the Love that He is giving us? What is it that is so hurting, so depressing, so failing when we are talking about that in earth? It's mortal Love. It's never too good to be too indugled in it. It will only give us more ways to compromise with our Father up there. With the one and the only truthful God in Heaven.

Sometimes I wonder, how come I'm putting so much into this love relationships, how come I'm more focused on the mortal Loves, I mean as in those BGRs. Why didn't I notice that there is someone much more important, looking down at me wanting to catch hold of my attention? Why didn't I realise it sooner, which will cause all of these misery to not even grasp me. Why am I so foolish to not trust in God, to not rely on His timing. Why did I have doubts. I know I shouldn't, I have finally realised my mistake.

Too late? Sometimes I do wonder.

Only His Love is Unfailing. Ask yourself, does a Love put to a test would last forever? If it could, I don't mind trying.

His Angel~ weisheng

2006-12-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

~Never expected things would turn out this way...

~Never expected you would react this way...

~Never expected you would be hurt so deeply...

~Never expected you are so fragile...

~Never expected you will cry for the whole night...

~Never expected I would say those words...

~Never expected I could be so selfish...

~Never expected I am such a person with those facades...

I guess everything wouldn't be the same anymore. That "feeling" is gone right? It has faded away i believe? Slowly day by day, each day sorrow and hurts keep haunting you. Your shadow doesn't even fits your ownself anymore. When you told me you couldn't find yourself anymore, I guess I've lost Myself too... Just like a walking zombie without his own shadow anymore. How did this happen? I couldn't find an answer to it too. I guess i shouldn't have known you in the first place, sometimes I do wonder. If you haven't have known me, things wouldn't have come to this point. I'm sorrry.

Like someone said, Love is not letting your other-half be hurt... Never allowing her to shed a tear for you. Ah, I lost it. Everything seems to be set aplace. I always ask myself is this His will or is it just something that prevents us. I'm still not sure. It's so hard to explain. I don't even have a chance to speak to you. Guess you didn't even wanted to talk to me. My guess is I'm just thinking too much, assuming things that never had happened before. Now i know, you told me before that you do have feelings for him. Foolish Me. If i had known this earlier, things would be so different. We wouldn't be in such a dliemma. Or maybe I wouldn't be in such a patheic state. He is really better, how am I to compare with him? I do wonder. Maybe there wasn't a need to compare in the first place. He has never hurt you, nor made you cry. He has always been so good to you. Ahh, maybe it's time.

*Suffering in Silence? NO, Cry out in Deseration.

男人不该让女人流泪 - 苏永康

2006-12-12T01:05:00.000+08:00

Thanksgiving.

Just some few people to give thanks to.

Caleb Leng bro : Hey bro, it's really great to have you as my bro. I really thank God for His way of bringing us together as brother-in-christ. Seeing how He linked both of us into His kingdom, we already knew each other in our Sec school before, and now surprisely we are in the same church too~ It's not only just a concidence i guess, it's His works. It's really a blessing to have gotten to know you. You're such a nice person, committing yourself to God and His people, it really encourages me. To be more like Him. Thankyou brother, for everything, for making me so welcomed in Wefc. God will honour you heart. *and the plaster for my leg, thankyou so much. I really appreicate that. (=

Shun Bin bro : Hey u this brother ah, nothing to say lah. All i can say is you are too good to say anything for. Haha. Thankyou for always being there for me. Thankyou for spending that time always nevertheless talking to me, encouraging me, listening to my nagging. I really do appreicate this brotherhood. God really uses His people, you are really such an big impact in my life. Though it's always we two talking only, but I really learn alot from you, learn alot more about you. It's really a blessing to me, I want to step deeper into this Brotherhood. Sharing your burdens and problems, listening to you, praying for you. Thankyou Brother. You're more than an angel to me. (= (Try not to scold those words so much lah. Self-Control. 10 pumpings every word. haha.)

Benn bro : Hey brother, i know i'm at wrong when I didn't ask you in the first place, I feel very bad about it. I know what's done cannot be undone, but still I want to say I'm sorry, I'm really sincere about helping you, about sharing your problems and burdens with you. I know it's been hard on you lately, those mental and physical stress. I understand, I wish to help. I wish that we all can run this together, for Christ. Dear brother, all I can say to you is God is always there whenever you need Him, He never leaves nor forsakes you. And our brothers here will never do that too. We are here! (=

Thomas bro : Hey brother, know you weren't be reading this blog, but maybe just to assure myself that I'm very thankful for such a brother-in-Christ like you. You have always been so different, so uniquely different from the others. I cherish this brotherhood with you, and I want to grow deeper with you too, knowing your problems, sharing with you and praying for you. Though others may push you aside, though others may left you alone, but fret not my brother. We are here for you! rmb the fellowship we had, rmb the laughters, the joy. Nothing compares to Him. Why think about how others think about us? We live by Faith, not by Sight. If they judge, they will be judged back. *praying for you, running with you!

Mervin bro : Hey bro, know that u are having some problems too, but fret not too. We are always here for you too. Just let us know if u need any help. we would be gladly to help! Thankyou for those songs too, it really encourages me to be more like Him. It really encourages my walk with Christ. Thankyou for always being so willing to play bball with me, i guess u are one of the fews that played bball with me in the very first time I came church. Thankyou for being there, for welcoming me. I appreicate you for who you are. (=

Camp Committee : Thankyou guys for making this camp such an wonderful and enjoyable stay. It makes me wanna have camps everyday. haha. Without you guys, I guess there wouldn't even be a start at all, without you guys, i guess this isn't a camp anymore. Thanks God for all these people. God blesses.

Ah Jie : Hey mentor ah jie. Thankyou so so so much. I'm really glad to have you as my mentor. I'm really happy whenever I see you la. haha. You're really such a blessing to everyone. Thankyou so much for that very long prayer for me on omega night. You cried for me, you cared for me, you prayed for me. Where would I find anyone in this world that would cry for me, that care for me so much. Only you Jie. Thankyou Thankyou. praise the Lord almighty. (=

All the others that wrote cards, notes to me : Hey thankyou everyone that wrote encouraging cards/notes to me. etc, lim hong joy vera. Thankyou so much. I really appreciate it alot, though it may seems a small thing, but to me, it really meant ALOT and ALOT. I really am blessed to be in such a warm-hearted family. I feel so much in loved being with you all. Thank God and Thank you. (((=

Loves, by His unchanged Angel~ weishengg.

2006-12-09T23:18:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH. YOUTH CAMP IS OVERRRR.

grrr. why so fast..... 5 days just gone like this. crap, i think i'm having post camp syndrome. aiyaaaa. though i know alot of ppl say this year's youth camp wasn't as fun as the previous years, but still I really enjoyed it. It was fun to me, though there were some areas that were not really up to expectations. But still, we don't live in expectations rmb? We live for Him only, worshipping Him alone. praise the Lord for making this camp such a blessing to everyone. I thankyou Lord, thankyou for camp commandant Jabez, asst camp commandant Edmund, peixian for her delicious foods, rachel for handling the moneys, Elliot(my fake-angel, but i like being with him.) for his logistics works, JIE for his worshipping and for praying for me on Omega Night, thankyou alot Jie. Jess for packing those prizes, and priscilla for her publicity. Thankyou everyone for making this camp such an enjoyable and meaningful camp. I really had great lots of fun.

Day 1 - Angel and Mortal, I get to know who is my mortal. It's Limmy, Lim Hong. Haha. It's good, she's a good mortal to me. she even gave me more than what my angel gave me lah. hahaha, though she wasn't here on monday cos she went bangkok, but still I thank God for this mortal. Heh.

- Game Axis, 4 stations of games. had great lots of fun. esp my first one was the acting-guessing game. Woo, Emily, Abel and me acted. den my other team mates were guessing. We guess 38 out of 40 lah. I tot we surely win aleady, but to our surprise, the other team got 39 out of 40 lah. Oh my, Haha. But still it was great. the worst thing abt these games are the siewmai passing game... GUYS rmb anot??? Hahaha. But still we had fun, joy and laughters (=

Day 2 - Operation paradise, Si Zhi Lu Kou. hahaa, run alot alot alot with our barang barangs lah. oh my, Jabez wanted us to carry all our lagguage and run around from Church to Chinatown, till SA Village lah. that was like so crazy man, super duper tiring after we reached at SA village. We played quite a few games too, walking on water and Dark room. and we get to spend the night in SA~ Woo~ first time i went SA and slept there lah, it was super good, cos only top 3 teams get to sleep in air-con room with BEDS. You heard that? AIR-CON ROOM with BEDS. HAHA. Dark room wasn't as fun as it should be. I was expecting more. haha, but still praise the Lord for it.

Day 3 - THE QUEST. haha, yea the quest was extremely tiring, but fun. guess i dont have to say everyone also knows what it is about right? If u dunno what it is about, let me know i explain to you. haha. cos alot to write, i'm getting lazy already. heh. but just ask me if u want to know ya. I can only say here that my team Andronicus WON. Wee, our mighty and ulitmate Warrior Dylan won the quest. hahaha. praise the Lord.

- Lounge Games, ahh this one is the worst i can say among my whole 5 days of camp. Cos maybe it wasn't went on as planned, or maybe it was too rush. It didn't go smoothly becos of quite some problems arises and we had to resolve it. It's no good. haha. But still, we manage to had some fun i guess. playing human pool table game, and jackpot. at first i tot jackpot was a game that cheats our money, but it had a deep meaning in the end, it says that no matter what we bet on, the House always wins. so DON'T GAMBLE. But.... the night was good becos I'm sleeping over at SA again. hahaha. air con with bed. yeahhhhhh. funniest thing was my brother shun bin and me. we sneak out of our room and went down to the open space to talk, crap, play till 2am+ hahaha. thankyou God for sending this brother to me, he is really awesome, God you are too.

Day 4 - Gear ourselves up and went back to church. but before that, we went to play Catching Tales. Oh my, this game is one of the nicest game I had played in thecamp. It really shows our unity, our teamwork, our strengths and our spirit to fight. Though i wasn't quite happy with the unfair play part, with Jabez and Mingjie but still I was reminded by God's words. He told us to be Slow To Anger, Abounding In Love. I really almost got into a fight with Mingjie, but i stopped. I knew it wouldn't do us any good. Thankyou God for the words that spoke through me.

- I guess day 4 is the best day for me in youth camp, becos maybe it is the last day. At night we had Omega Night, it was so so so great. the 1 min talk about a topic alone, the imitating act we had to perform. Rmb I was the prince okay. and the bob and the budduh... hahahaha. so cool right. hehehe. I love it so much. Thankyou Lord. Lastly was the worship and SK's testimony. SK's story was great, though everyone was very tired out by his long speech, i wasn't as i really believe his story. I understand his feeling, his acceptance thru Christ and his faith on Christ now. It's so strong like a mighty tower. Omega Night was the only time I really submit everything to God, I cried out so loudly, kneeling down putting my hands up high praising His name only. I really spoke to God. Thankyou God for revealing yourself to me. I praise and worship you eternally..... didn't slept for the whole night.

Last day - Ahh, so fast. How i wish it wasn't so fast. I am missing youth camp.... ahhhh. haha. okay ya last day was tidying up as usual, and we had brunch, meaning breakfast and lunch together. after that was prize giving ceremony. OH, my team Andronicus didn't get first placing... wasted, we were all along first place on day 1 to day 4, till i think day 4 we lost to Ampliatus at the imitating acts thingy. so wasted, we got second. but nvm, placing wasn't really important, what's important is how much have we learn from this camp, how much have we grow from it and thru it. Did we have a breakthrough? We have to ask ourselves. (= Ya we got our prizes and took group photos. lastly was the Angel and Mortal game. Haha, we finally get to know who our angels are. Yup I told Lim Hong i was her angel, she wasn't really shocked, cos all along she was guessing either her angel was Eric or Me. so ya, it wasn't really fun. haha. But still this was the first time in my life I had written so many cards to someone in 5 days lah. Haha, what a breakthrough. hehe. My angel was Grace, the younger one. dun really know who she was, but she is really one shy type. Thankyou thou. Yup, after that we went to take our bags and start rushing home, haha. i wasn't expecting everyone to rush home liddat lah, we didnt even shout our Group Cheer. so crappy lor, didnt even have debrief lah. but i guess everyone was really tired lah. and maybe our parents were waiting for them at home too. But still i went to play bball, i'm tired but still can play lah. haha.

The End. that was like a short and simple preview of my 5 days in Youth Camp. isn't it fun??? hahaha, guess those who didnt go were regretting it already. hahaha. oh ya i'm tired now too, i guess i have to go and sleep early too. I want to wake up early tml and give Thanksgiving to God. I really want to. actually i wanted to today at 5pm service, but i cant make it, so yup tml i will be. I have to thanks so so many things, i dont know where to start lah. haha. Oh ya tml i will be playing floorball. I will have a breakthrough. I wont play basketball anymore, till SFC is back again, till everyone is so enthu abt sports in ministry again. yeah, i want to be fair to everyone, to every sports. See ya guys tml. (=

Signing off, His changed angel. (=

2006-12-04T09:28:00.000+08:00

YOUTH CAMP!!!!

YEAH! FINALLY THE TIME HAS COME! AND I WILL BE SETTING OFF IN 5 MINS! HAHAHA.

GOGO CAMP COMMANDANT!

GOGO CAMPERS!

GOGO ANDRONICUS!

GOGO WEISHENG!

NON CAMPERS! PLEASE PRAY FOR US!!! (=

IMITATIO CHRISTI! TO BE MORE LIKE JESUS! =D

I'm GOING OFF! SEE YA GUYS ON FRIDAY!

2006-12-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

I MISS CAFE! )''=

hais. dunno why i just miss cafe life now. Haha. Though it was quite a short period of time I spend working there, but honestly I had quite a deep impression of the place. Those nights we spend kicking up a fuss in the cafe over the world cup thingy, those sleepless nights serving customers; though it was quite irritating, but I really had a great time there. Still can imagine that night I raise my voice to ask that guy get lost, how silly I was. Frankie bro, so sorry created so many troubles for you. Guess i really am not good enough. But still, praise the Lord. This is the place where I get to know Him and come into His kingdom. I really have so many, so many thanksgiving to so many and many people. Haha, write till tml also cannot finish lah. (= But cafe life was SO FUN. Those goals, laughters, shoutings. Oh my, how I wish this was not just an dream. Come on weisheng, wake up liao. dream over. Cafe no more. ))= NO MORE POOL!! AHHH. back to normal working life with a new surrounding, a new atmosphere, a new boss, a new working environment. How is it going to be like? I don't know, I don't want to know either. )= Time to Let GO, and LET GOD.

Maybe it's just the timing. Maybe it's time to leave. Maybe to somewhere far far away. Where nobody knows, or maybe nobody can find. 3 years later, I don't know. I might not be the same person anymore, I might not be the one you are looking for. But still, I don't want to break this bond, this promise. You told me not to wait, not worth it. But still, I will wait. You ask me why am I so good to you? I didn't know how to answer. But now I know, it's because God was so good to Me in the first place. My dear Friend, 3 years might be long, but I'm still counting, still fighting, still longing. -To Live With No Regrets.

I miss the time when we were playing pool...

2006-11-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

HAIYA! SADDED. 21 years old age limit restricted! grr. disappointed though )= , but will still continue to serve, serve and still serve! (=

wow, been quite a while since i last blogged eh. okay lets cut it short and simple. Had quite an interesting and down-to-earth sermon talk today. Was very practical to our daily life issues.

-WHEN FEELING INSECURE!

Praise the Lord.
Fear the Lord.
Trust the Lord.

Actually hor, frankly speaking i have fear of self-rejection sometimes. To be honest, I'm quite scared of what others think about me, whether am i doing the right thing anot, or am i doing something wrong? i always think alot, thinking about whether it should be meant this way or that way. And sometimes, or maybe most of the times I would regret after doing it. I hate it la, but i guess it's simply just Me. but slowly, day by day through His love, i believe i will change someday.

I like the scenario about the Thermometer and the Thermostat too! Oh man, that's so real and true to me as it really reflects the way some of us does.

Thermometer - Registering and reflecting the surroundings of the people around him. Like a mirror-like image presenting himself/herself towards others.

V/S

Thermostat - Influencing the people around him and making every effort to bless the people and to glorify our Heavenly Father's Name. To God be the Glory.

Sounds so realistic eh. Which category are You in? Haha.

Some questions Pastor Shern wants us to ponder upon.
QN: When was the last time you really Worship God?
QN: Why do you Worship Him?
QN: How do you know when you are in fear of the Lord?

after service went for CG gathering, had worship songs, sharing and lunch together. (= Food was not bad, thanks Aggie for the recommendation. After that went "somewhere"(secret), ya and den for extended worship. i was quite late for it, only came in after the last 3 songs. SAD la. but was really touching and fulfiling. I really knelt down and pray towards Him. after that played Bball, cool man bball seems to be talking off flight, everyone seems so attracted to Bball now. Hahaha. Must be cause of Who? *Hinting* er-hem. Hahaha. but still guys please don't neglect *SFC* okay. I really do pinned hopes on this sports ministry because I believe it has really great purpose in God's work. Lets Shine For Christ by indulging ourselves with Soccer, Floorball and Captain's ball too! though i'm focusing on Bball more, but i will be playing these 3 sports more often too! I should learn to be more pro-active and take part in them ya. being flexible is Great! (=

after that ah, went dinner with sb, ben and Thomas. Was great though I didn't eat, but i'm glad i accompained Thomas for dinner. Because I get to know more about him, his life, the way he handles his stuffs. Ya u guys might think Thomas isn't the same as us, but come to think of it guys, you all are totally wrong. He's a very special guy i feel, so precious in God's eyes. We should learn to accept him more readily. why judge others by thier appearance, thier character, thier motions. We should learn to be more like Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour. He who is so perfectless from Sins had never judge anyone through His eyes. He sees us all as His children, child of God. No matter what, we are all still brothers/sisters-in-Christ. We should always help one another when in times of need and encourage one another when in times of trouble. This is what pleases the sight of our God. This is what brings Glory unto Him. After that went er-hem's house to watch vcd. Lake house is a great show, but ya watched it 2 times already. though it's quite unrealistic but it's still a pretty fine and touching movie to catch up with. then, went home and now i'm wasting my time on this blog? Hahaha. Okay shall stop, very shek already. heh. =P

Mighty Warrior - weishengg signing off~

*His Righteousness Endures FOREVER!* (=

2006-11-21T15:31:00.000+08:00

-How do you know when you are in love? How do you tell the difference between a crush or infatuation and real love?

Read up the comments at http://personals.yahoo.com/us/static/singles-life_infatuation ((=

I like this comment on the topic ; It's hard to describe being in love; you simply know it when you feel it. A crush is a romantic bliss state where the person does no wrong. Infatuation is where there is no care about the big picture and your enjoying the hot sensation of the moment like a fast-burning candle. Being in love is like an anchor of reason and romance living in balance. Unlike a crush or infatuation, love is comforting as it settles from the spiking highs and lows. Love is a condition of the heart and mind. Love is understanding the "why" behind your acceptance. Love is warm. And to add on myself, Love is so everlasting. So beautiful. (=

2006-11-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

Hello, suddenly feel like blogging. maybe to kill some time. haha. Hmm, just now when i was walking down the road, i came to think about the book I saw at IMM in the afternoon. It was "True Love Comes To Those That Wait Upon Him." It came straight up to my mind and I was quite surprised. I thought of afew questions on my mind. 1st was "Is true love worth the wait?" 2nd was "If it was, when will it be? How I wish it was Now." lastly was "if there really was, how am I going to face it? Is the adversary good enough for me to handle? Am I really ready for it?" And then I was thinking actually maybe it's because I had some problems elsewhere and I really needed someone to talk to. someone to share that burden, that woe with me, holding my hand patting on my back saying "weisheng, it will all turn out just fine!" How wonderful eh, I was really lonely that time and thus I was quite desperate to find one. And I really rushed to it. Sorry for any inconvience caused. )'= maybe it wasn't time yet. I sense God's words!

And then, suddenly my CG-leader caught my attention. Aggie and Joshua. Haha, guess I don't really have to introduce who they are. I suppose everyone do know that these 2 lovebirds are together. heh. (= Sorry both of you for using your names! But really I was thinking about the Love, Chemistry, hard work, the pain, everything between you 2, and I'm really glad and encouraged that by you two that True Love does exists. ((= I had heard quite afew stories about how you 2 came about and how dramatic and touching it came up to be. I was really impressed by how God really works in ways we can't see. How He managed to save my dear CG-leader from a place of darkness and come to know Christ like how I do too. (= How He managed to bring Joshua into His Kingdom too. How He managed to bring about these two special people into a relationship of Trust, Faith, Love and Hope. Praise the Lord for his mighty works. Really, thankyou so much for letting me see through what is it like to really wait upon You, oh God. I'm so envious!! Haha. envy-ing them every sunday, those looks, those loving aura among them. But it's okay. I understand and I will wait. I know God will sooner or later reward me in his Love. heh (= Thankyou Lord.

Your Mighty Warrior - weisheng signing off~

Hero-

Would you dance if I ask you to Dance?
Would you run and never look back?
Would you cry if you saw me crying?
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if i touch your lips?
Would you laugh, oh please tell me this.
Would you die for the one you love?
Hold me, hold me closely please.

I'm willing to be your Hero, but are you willing to let me be in the 1st place?

2006-11-18T21:24:00.001+08:00

Heyy, i'm feeling much more refreshed today! as in for the past few days, i wasn't very myself. Sorry for those that i made them angry, made them cry, made them sad. I feel truly very bad. I shouldn't had use my emotions to settle things, making replies in anger. I wasn't very okay because of some family matters, some past. and some friends.

Yongling : hey, Hen Bao Qian. I wasn't intentional when I replied you those harsh words. I knew I was very wrong when I got angry, guess you found out too how come my temper was so hot these few days. I wasn't angry with you, really. My emotions just got the better of me. I will change, not to be so stubborn anymore; trust me. I know all of your good intentions, your caring, and your kindness. I'm just so stupid that I harden my heart and not letting go of my pride. )'= Your kor was correct, it was really just an misunderstanding and a miscommunication between us. And I really seek for your forgiveness! I will be Humble, so humble like the 1st time I came church and how i knew you. (; *praying, wishing and hoping*

Frankie Bro : Hi my dearest brother always encouraging me, never leaving my side. Although I know that you wouldn't see this blog, but I really just want to say Thankyou so much for all the things, for Everything! You're such a blessing for me, I'm so blessed to have gotten to know you. SERIOUS! ((= Just want to assure you that Me weisheng your didi, will always be fighting alongside with you! no matter how strong the storms are, how rugged the waves are, I'm always just a few steps apart from you. Never leaving your hands, never shaking my legs. Lets cast all of our fears aside and fight for our God's kingdom. *Brothers Always*! ((=

Mindy : Hey manager! Suprised to see your name in this list ma? Haha. You're so great la mindy! thankyou for everythingg! especially for all the bubble teas! You know I love pao pao cha la! It feels so good always to have a bigger sister cheering you up, and you have really bless me through your walk with Christ. Also wanna assure you that you are never forgotten! if you ever wanna go out walk walk, eat eat, shop shop, let me know ya! Your this xiao didi can pei you go. Haha. (But first, must rmb to buy more bubble teas for me! HAHA. jus kidding!)

Sulwyn : Hey! it's been such an encouragement having to know you. Thankyou so much for all the small little things you have done. I can see, and I'm really appreicating it so much. You have really been such a great friend, such a blessing. Also to assure you that you are never alone! You have our Father holding on to you, and also Us fighting alongside with you! You're always in my prayers! ((=

To everyone reading : Thankyou all those that are walking with me in this walk with Christ. Thankyou all for the encourages, for the motivations, for the laughters, for everything la! haha. ((=

Guess that is everything for now ba. Also, today after going gym, I just realised i wasn't so lonely afterall. Having my parents beside me, they are such a blessing to me. They have been so great. I wanna walk with them, wanna eat with them, wanna talk to them, wanna cry with them. All the things that I'm doing I do it just for You. ((=

*Making a duty-promise to talk/eat/shop with them every once a week, or maybe twice a week. Never forgetting about my friends too!*

2006-11-17T23:36:00.001+08:00

我们的约定，三年后。 (Our Promise, 3 years later.)

在我二十一岁的生日 09/11/2009 9pm，(On my 21st birthday, 09/11/2009 9pm.)

我们批许要给必此对方一个答案 (We have to give each other an definite answer.)

我们的答案会是如何呢? (What will our answers be?)

到时候我们也应该都长大了，(By that time, we will already be mature enough,
也该会选出一个完美的结局。 to choose what kind of perfect ending we want.)

我一定会记得这个约定的，(I'm sure that I'll keep this promise,
你也不可以望记啊! You also must not forget about it!)

我一定会等你! (I Will Wait For You!) (=

Guang Liang - Yue Ding.

说好的三年不见面 (Shuo hao de san nian bu jian mian)
用我们的爱把时间留住 (Yong wo meng de ai ba si jian liu zhu)
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定 (Ni xiao zhe shuo ze shi wo meng de kao yan wo meng
de yue ding)
就这样三年又过了 (Jiu ze yang san nian you guo le)
我还是回到这个地方 (Wo hai shi hui dao zhe ge di fang)
闭上眼等你的出现 (Bi shang yan deng ni de chu xian)
空气中吻你的脸 (Kong qi zhong wen ni de lian)
我还记得我们的约定 (Wo hai ji de wo meng de yue ding)
一辈子幸福的约定 (Yi bei zhi xing fu de yue ding)
为你写的那首歌 (Wei ni xie de nan shou ge)
他也偷偷的掉泪了 (Ta ye tuo tuo de diao lei le)
我比以前还更爱你了 (Wo bi yi zian hai geng ai ni le)
连那风都笑我了 (Lian na feng dou xiao wo le)
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了 (Wo xiang ta hui gao shu ni de wo geng ai ni le)
我想他会告诉你的 (Wo xiang ta hui gao shu ni de)
你会记得我们的约定 (Ni hui ji de wo meng de yue ding)
听着风我也笑了 (Ting zhe feng wo ye xiao le)
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了 (Ta yi ding hui gao shu ni de wo geng ai ni le!)

2006-11-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

SO SICKENING! GRR. What a bad night i had. still feeling so vexed up. don't know why, i just hate it when u guys are like this. Sometimes, i really hate going out with you guys. as in i fear that the same problem arises again. oh man, everyone is so similiar. so not much different from my friends in the past, have to please them, have to care for them, have to help them, make them happy. Oh Gosh, why the heck am i even caring so much for. I tried to care, tried to save but was pushed back with attitudes all around. IT'S TRUE! STOP BEING A BUSYBODY. oh man, this sentence really hit flat on my face man. Escpecially today when i was reading Thessalonians 4:11 - Make it your goal to live a quiet life, minding your OWN damn business and working with your hands, just as we were instrusted before. It really smack hard on my face man. I CARE TOO MUCH! And it really do affects my emotions alot. I care about how others think, how others react, how they reply, how they reject. Why in the world do i even need to do all these. I should only serve God, not serve the people around me. Today is really the time when I wake up man. I don't wanna care about how others judge me anymore. It's so pointless as in what's the use of being nice to others, having those facades. Time to live a simple and a quiet life with God.
Colossians 3:3 - Let other things come and go as they will; let other people criticize us as they will; but never allow anything to obsurce the life "that is hidden with Christ in God."
Isaiah 50:10,11 - There is never any need to pretend that your life is filled with joy and confidence, just wait upon God and be grounded in Him.
So true, today i really learned alot of things and i'm really putting everything to good use now.

-CRYING out in Desperation. It hurts, it hurts so badly! bleeding profusely. =[

OH MY AND PLEASE, DON'T SAY SORRY TO ME. I HATE IT THE MOST, SERIOUS.

wherever you go, be obedient; be loyal to Him.

2006-11-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEISHENG! FINALLY 18 LIAO. GOSH I'M FEELING SO "OLD". Haha.

thankyou to all those that wished me happy bday already. glad to have all of you here with me! =]

Great! I'm a year older now. more responsibilties coming my way yeah. Bear with it!

My wish for this year, hmm lets see. I wish to be able to imitate more like Jesus Christ, my Lord. Wish that I can grow more through Faithfulness and Fruitfulness. =] I also wish that God can use me as an extension to His kingdom, in encouraging more disciples to worship Him like I do. May my wish be granted and may I be refreshed through His love for me. (also 1 more wish, but still a secret for now. Only God and me knows. =D)

Whenever I hear your name~

2006-11-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

4 steps to be with God.

4. If you want to accept Christ, you can ask Him to be your Savior and Lord by praying a prayer like this:

"Lord Jesus, I believe you are the Son of God. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. Please forgive my sins and give me the gift of eternal life. I ask you in to my life and heart to be my Lord and Savior. I want to serve you always."

-Did You Pray This Prayer? =D

2006-11-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

4 steps to be with God~

3. God sent His only Son Jesus Christ to die for our sins.

Jesus is the Son of God. He lived a sinless life and then died on the cross to pay the penalty for our sins. "God demonstrates His own love for us in that while we were yet sinners Christ died for us."

Jesus rose from the dead and now He lives in heaven with God His Father. He offers us the gift of eternal life -- of living forever with Him in heaven if we accept Him as our Lord and Savior. Jesus said "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except by Me."

God reaches out in love to you and wants you to be His child. "As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe on His name." You can choose to ask Jesus Christ to forgive your sins and come in to your life as your Lord and Savior.

To Be Continued~ =D

2006-11-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

4 steps to be with God~

2. All of us have done, said or thought things that are wrong. This is called sin, and our sins have separated us from God.

The Bible says "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." God is perfect and holy, and our sins separate us from God forever. The Bible says "The wages of sin is death."

The good news is that, about 2,000 years ago,

To Be Continued~ =D

2006-11-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

4 Steps to Be With God~

1. God Loves You!

The Bible says, "God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."

The problem is that...................

To Be Continued~ =D

2006-10-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Journal 11.

Grr, blog liao la. Happy anot? Haha. Okok whatever just 1 short post ba. I very lazy now leh. ehh what to say huh.

Okay start off by saying what I had for the whole week. Not very happy la. Had alot of short upcomings, disappointments and boring moments. Had quite afew sleepless nights cause of these. Aiya, all these problems don't have to say here. I can handle it myself "alone". Because it's meant to be my own problem right? Haha. But, honestly I haven't been handling it well. People around me can see la right. Obviously, always stoning/staring blankly around thinking of dunno what things. But come to think of it, I shouldn't be thinking so much. All these are just small little pebbles for me to overcome ya? God is still there for me right? He will make a way, when there seems to be no way remember?

It's okay man. I'm still strong. Still fighting. Not giving up no matter what. If those who know me well enough, they should know my perservance level. It's way too high man. For eg, a puzzle I can do it for many many hours without the intention of giving up. Can go without food also, sometimes I think abit mad la. Haha. I won't give up one. I will perserve on! For the sake of His love for me, for the sake of His faithfulness on me. I won't just die there, will continue to pursue on His plans for me. =) U all out there, must also be strong okay. Fight on, no matter how tough the suitation goes, don't forget. He is still there for us, He has never leave nor forsake us. Indugle yourself in His love and worship Him as our awesome God, our mighty saviour. =)

Lastly, good luck to those having O levels on Monday. Work hard okay. The time has finally come and all the preparations/sweats/tears/sleepless nights/stress will all reap. All the sows will be reaped out, cause our Lord says so. =) *Will be praying. Esp for you.* =) Jiayou. Thumbs up!

Okay, zhao liao. ~Ciaoz.

2006-10-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

If one day....

-If one day you feel like crying, Call me.
I don't promise to make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.

-If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to Call me.
I don't promise to make you stay,
But I can run with you.

-If one day you don't want to listen to anyone, Call me.
I promise to be there for you,
But also promise to remain silent with you.

But one day if you call, and there is no answer.
Quick come and look for me.
Perhaps I may need you on that one day.

2006-10-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

-Simple And Clean- Journal 10 : God Will Make A Way, Where There Seems To Be No Way.

Hey! God is Amazing ya? =) Yeah, drained after having quite a long day out today. But come to think of it, that's what Life is about isn't it? Haha. Correct me if I'm wrong. Guess no one would. Heh. Exhausted because of the opening of cafe, trying to make up those fences. There's 432 of them! Oh no, when will I ever finish it.. =( It's okay, no Fear! Come to think of it, God is always with me, my strength and power comes within Him. =) Jiayou man! Haha.

Today was really an interesting day. It all starts up when I woke up at around 11am. Ya same thing trying to drag myself up from bed, haha as always. Prepared myself and rode bicycle to cafe. As I rode by the breeze of air, I started to think about those days without Christ in Me. And by looking at Me now having Faith in our Lord. Oh my, I suddenly feel such a big difference. Such an unexpected change in life. Those unseen tears, untold memories and unexpected fears starts flashing by through Me. So unpredictable, unlikely. But still, God is Good. =)

After reaching, went up and cut my way through those barriers of tiredness, lethargicness and continued my sawing of fences. Till not long, boss started calling me. He ask me to help him wash his car because his friend is marrying tml! And boss will be driving the bridal car. Haha. (When will it be his turn? I will be waiting!) I told him that when it is his turn, I will drive the bridal car and be his Best-Man! Hahaha. He say "okay lor, whatever la." Heh. So funny. So I went to help him wash the car.

No doubt, BasketBall just can't slip of my mind. Heh. So we were actually suppose to play Bball at his house downstairs. But to my least expected, I lost the air-pump's needle! Oh man, worst thing is the Bball has no air in it. Great, Praise the Lord. Haha. But honestly, I really want to Praise the Lord for this. Our God is really so Amazing. He's really wonderful, making wonders that we can't see. I will tell you why now. Because, I asked Shun Bin to join us for Bball games, Sulwyn came too. Thanks for coming, really. Frankie had a call saying that he has to wear casual-formal blazer tml for the wedding. But he didn't had one, so he went to buy one. Leaving only Shun bin and me below his house. But at that time, I discovered that I have dropped the air-pump's needle somewhere, however I couldn't find it, guess it really dropped into the lift's hole. Unreachable anymore. =( How careless of Me, indeed. But still, Praise the Lord. Having clueless searches for 15 mins, still couldn't find it. So we both gave up and tried going to shops near cafe to buy. Ya, to our delight we found one! A shop that sells air-pump/needle. How wonderful. But to an extent, we didn't brought any money out with us, how great. Praise the Lord. Cluelessly, we started thinking what to do, I decided to call my near-by friends in hope that they do own an Bball/air-pump. No doubt, called quite a few, not even one has it! Praise the Lord. Sadly, I was kinda guility as in calling them out for Bball games but in the end, no ball to play. But, the Lord is Good! He entrusted me with a cafe with a pool table! Haha. Praise the Lord. Delightfully, we went up and started playing pool. Was great, had lots and lots of games. And I believe yesterday was my best time playing pool, I feel a sense of real enjoyment in it suddenly. Only had this feeling once in a while. Haha. But, that wasn't the climax. The most important factor was while we were playing, a guy name Joseph suddenly came up to the cafe, shockily I went up to him in the hope of telling him we are not yet opened but he reply to me asking whether can he rent this place for his 21st birthday next month. And our cafe is going to be opened only next month too! Oh my, Praise the Lord for this. Astounded by his reply, I gave him Frankie's number and intrust him to contact Frankie for more information. And he did! Frankie agreed and this was our very 1st customer for our opening next month! Even before our cafe opened, God has already sent us someone in hope of motivating us to move on! See how amazing our God is. He really works in wonders that we can't see.

How Jospeh knew it was a cafe, and there were ppl up there? Cause I played my mp3 on the sound booster very loudly and the songs were worship songs!! Hillsongs specificily. Oh man, Praise the Lord for this. He told us he was a christian too, so it was attracted by the songs! As you can see from the whole story, this is just like a plan by our God. 1stly, lost the needles unable to play Bball, den no cash to buy any equips or whatever. And nobody near-by has any ball or pumps. Den go to cafe to enjoy our fellowship gathering. And God sent someone down to us. See, if I haven't had lost the needle in the 1st place, this whole incident wouldn't had happened. Seeing how God made a way for me, I'm really thankful for Him. Lastly, I want to say Praise the Lord! =)

Signing Off, Beloved frontline of Jesus.

2006-10-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

-Simple And Clean- Journal 9: I Can Only Imagine.

y0oo, it's been a long time since I last blogged. Wow, a new blogskin! Cool, I just found one. Heh. It's the sea of Galilee! Aww, the scenery is so nice man.

Don't wanna spend too much time on blogging, so just cut it short and simple ya. Been thinking through these few days on how God, our Lord and Saviour has work in my life to draw me closer to Him and also how He had worked in my life after recieving Christ. Never had such serious thoughts about it before. Really gladful to Aggie for asking me to share these 2 questions on our CG worship on last sunday. Was great, I did manage to have that couarge to share it with the others. Though it wasn't a long dramatic story, but glad I had that acceptance through them. Actually, I feel so lucky la. Thinking about the days before I met Frankie, he was the one who brought me to church a few months ago, I had really been wasting all my precious time doing nothing in favour to our Heavenly Father. Spending unworthy time, sleepless nights on the computer, day and night, skipping meals and such just for the sake of that little excitement, actually I can say there wasn't any at all. Where else playing more of it gave me more stress.. Other than that, I'm really puzzled. What have I been doing in the glory of God? What have I been doing in His presence? Can I still stand in His presence? I can only Imagine. Really, I can only Imagine.

Other than that, had been spending 3/4 of my time at cafe everyday. 1/4 at home sleeping. Haha. That's my life now la. Boring, but fulfiling. I hope this cafe can be a place where our Lord rest in his conveant and in the glory of Him bringing more disciples into His kingdom. This will be a place where we gather, worship and sing praises to Him, our Lord and Saviour! I'm trying my best, really. Pray, pray for me, or even pray for us that this cafe can grow in the hands of our God. Like, how I manage to escape through the evil ones hands and came to grow into this cafe. I'm one very good example. =) Ya and of course not to forget BasketBall! Thanks to Frankie and Sulwyn ya. Almost everyday having Bball games, this is really super encouraging for me, it makes me continue to move on yeah. =) Frankiee! Tml last paper of exam right?! Lets have a round of 21 balls 1 on 1 again la. Hahaha, this time I very steady already. Bring it on! heh. And Sulwyn also can join. Join me, we 2 v 1 him. Haha. Not to mention those I always play with on sunday. Thanks to u all, had great lots of fun. =) Will be waiting for this sunday. Haha.

Last but not least, not to forget the one I always call quite late at night. Sorry ya, always reach home so late le still disturb you.. Don't know what has happened, you don't seem yourself lately. maybe is cos of stress? or maybe something else. u just don't wanna tell me, but maybe one day I hope u will tell me ba. Just wanna say Happiness shared is doubled, sorrow shared is halved. =)

-Sleeping time~ Nites all. oh ya not to forget, good luck to those having exams soon, and to Frankie for his paper tml! Ciaoz.

2006-09-14T09:44:00.000+08:00

-Simple And Clean- Journal 8: The Time I Long For, Entrust It To Me For I Promise You It Will
Not Take Me A Lifetime To Change.

Grrr, super lazy to blog la. Haha, whatever.. Tired, feeling crappy, exhausted like not enough sleep, random thoughts, thinking back, crazy plans. This is what I have been having these last few days. Sleep quite alot also no use, wake up le still very very tired... Seems like I'm getting weaker day by day. Where is the strength! Where is the power. I may need "something", that "something" that can help me tide myself through. Maybe that "something" was never meant to be found, or maybe it was. I am not sure either. I don't even know what that something is. Guess it's just a mystery, it happened to be and it will always be.

Blog abit only ba, 15 mins more going cafe le. Don't even have the strength to go la, and don't even feel like going. But nvm ba, since I promise Frankie to open the cafe everyday. Den I guess I should honour my words. Ya, those who saw my MSN nick, should have known that I am now abit broke le. Haha, cause yesterday spent quite alot of money la. After cafe closed, Frankie brought me along to fetch Mindy, saying he wants to cut "Mao" means hair la. Haha, don't anyhow think ya. Lols. He ask me want to cut anot, cos honestly la. My hair grow damn fast la. Cut liao afew weeks grow back again. zzz crappy hair. But in the end, I really did cut. Now alot more shorter ba, as in thickness gone, dunno. People told me this one neater la. I don't know, you see it urself den u make a judgement ba. Haha. Ya, at the saloon was Frankie's friend actually. She is a mother of 2 childrens. They went church too. It was Adam and Eve. But I didn't get to see them before. Maybe next time ba. So we had quite a talk in the saloon. Lots of random QnAs lol. Then, Frankie's friend introduce me a girl call Zhiwen. She's same age as me. Studies alot alot, Frankie's friend was actually her aunt la. Now den I know. Haha. Hmm, What can I say. This girl eh dun really know about her. But maybe next time can get to know more. Her aunt keep telling me aboutt her, saying she very anti-social one, saying she only study day and night, no friends one. Hmm, that's very weird, but interesting ya lol. Den her aunt keep encouraging her to go church, so ask me this sunday free anot... =.= ya expected. lol. Ok have to bring her to church this sunday, she still haven't confirm but I really hope she comes cos I guess church is the only place where she can really relax and put her mind at ease. Cos I can see that she's been having lots of stress, pressure lately. Eh, so those reading this who is going to church this sunday! Listen up! Please help me!! =x Hahahaha. Go forth yourself to introduce yourself hor. Cause I also quite new, dunno how to intro also, I guess when I'm talking to her, I would also be shy la. Haha. Maybe that's my fear all along. lol. Time to change it, but takes time right? Give me the time I need, for I know this will not last a lifetime. =)

After that, Frankie fetch me home, but I went to Causeway Point la. Guess nobody knew. Haha. Always alone walking around like a zombie lol. But nvm la. I am used to it. Guess it will always be like this. Doesn't matter, I am more used to this lifestyle. Not bad also, saw alot of nice things, including books, songs, puzzles. Oh ya, who wants to build up a 1000 pieces of jigzaw puzzle with me? Haha, I am looking forward to build one, I saw one very nice 1. About Kingdom Hearts also. Including every characters of the disney world. Example Winnie the Pooh, Mickey, Donald Duck and more etc. But 1000 really no joke la. I only did one 300 pieces before. Quite tiring le. Haha. This is my challenge now, those who wants to build it up with me, bring forth yourself ya. I will need your help. So don't be shy =P Haha. Money I pay, so don't have to worrie =) Just have to spend that time and patience to build it =D Ya as expected, looking at all those nice books and cds, temptations! Can't resist them la. Bought almost all of those that I liked. Broke le! Haha. One nice book is about this title, Chocolate for a Woman's Heart. This is quite a interesting novel. 77 stories of Love, kindness and compassion and the power of unconditional love. I will be taking these few days to read it up ba. Guess I will bring it over to cafe later. heh. Also a nice comic about KH too, oh my. I can't do without KH now la. Guess my world is filled up with those disney characters now. 1 more nice one is the music cd I bought! It's Jay Chou new album! Wooo, super nice la his songs. Last time I super hate him, now I super like him =x He's so cool man, love his voice. Spent around $60 in total. Oh goddess, first time spent so much money in a day la. Didn't even have money to eat dinner HAHA. =.= went home eat bread la... lol. When did I become such a spendthrift =.=.. Nvm, was quite fun anyways. Bought lots of things I like and want. So doesn't matters anymore. Now need to earn money to buy more things! =x

Here's a wishlist for me!

S.H.E Forever New Album. --> Main Pirority. ($15.80) Got Free Posters! Woo! Hebe =x
1000 KH Jigsaw Puzzle. --> Expensive =.= ($51.40)
All Of The Comics Regarding KH, or KH2. ($??.??) Still not sure how many books are there.
Why Are You Here, Cafe. --> It's a book regarding life. ($15.80)
A New Adidas Bag. --> I long for one. ($??.??) lol, not sure pricing yet.
A New Pair Of Adidas Shoes. --> Also wait very long le. ($100+) lol, abit crazy but I like =D

That's all ba, if I continue writing all of them, guess I don't have a tomorrow le. Haha. Too many la. All these are the main pirorities for now. Guess before I can get them, I need to work really hard ya. These are my short term goals! I have to make it no matter what! I Will, I Promise and I Will! =)

Signing Off, RoXaS. (=^ . ^=)

2006-09-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

-Simple And Clean- Journal 7: Outside These Walls, Breaking Down Those Walls.

Hey! Ahh, since what Michelle had stated, I think I would not go so naggy on this blog anymore. Just some short journals over here. I will keep my journal short and simple ba, since I prefer simple things.

Had a very very good day at Church yesterday. Thanks everybody. Was really wonderful. The service at 9am was a very good one. About my title. Outside These Walls. To keep it short, I would just emphasize on the main point is that Pre-Beliefers has 3 types of circumstances that they need to conquer before they can become True Beliefers. Which is Fear, Pressure and Hostilitly. These are physical walls of separation to prevent Pre-Beliefers from placing thier trust and faith on God. We need to break down these walls so as to entrust all the faith in Him. Heard from Pastor Kenny that to become a True Beliefer, we need to have 7 personal touches and teaching 3 christian gospels. To really entrust our full attention on Jesus, we have to do that. I am trying my best. Really. I believe one day, these walls will be Torn apart, I will then Build bridges and Pastor the community. I also heard that 2 more weeks, we will be having a Community Transformation as in going to home visits to bless the residents. Wow, this is great. Hope to be involved in it. After the whole service, we had a very nice song which is regarding Outside These Walls. Oh man, I defiantely love this song! Was so touching and smoothing. The lyrics goes like this,

-Withing these walls we join our hearts;
We come together to be set apart.
But worshipping on Sunday
is just a way to hide,
If we can't face on Monday the dying world outside.

Do the crying know we care?
Do the lonely find us there?
Are we so involved we do not hear them call?
Everywhere men are searching
They're wondering why they're hurting.
Do they see the love of Jesus at all,
outside these walls?

Within our hearts He planted a seed,
A love we can count on
For everything we need.
But safe in our seclusion,
how can we grow?
When outside these walls are fields we need to sow?

Lord, through our lives
please let others see
Your love reflecting through us perfectly.
And let the crying know we care,
Let the lonely find us there.
Don't be so involved we do not hear them call.
Everywhere men are searching,

They're wondering why they're hurting.
Let them see the love of Jesus in our song
outside these walls.

Great song right? I myself think it is. Because if you really read the words carefully and understand what it is saying about, you will really understand the life of what we are going through now. Thank You God for giving me this chance to attend this sermon for as I have learn many things through this. After that, we had CG meeting at causeway point. Went to Mos Burger to eat our lunch and to Swensens for ice-cream! Yeah! And then, we had open sunday. Was really fun, great job for the CG organizers. Lots of fun and exciting games we had there. After that, I went for basketball games, one touch rugby and jogging. Was really tiring, but was refreshing too =) Thanks guys.

After everything ended, ahh so fast. But there isn't any banquet that lasts forever right. Haha. Frankie left without even saying anything lah. I was calling for him, but he didn't care, or maybe he didn't heard me. "Maybe I was just an outsider afterall." Ah whatever. But was glad he did not took me away with him. Maybe was God who had all this planned. I believe it was. Because, I met Caleb, Benn, Shun Bin, Mervin and Thomas. And they all ask me to go dinner with them. So I agreed since Frankie didn't bid goodbye at all. But all the sadness just rid of by itself when I had dinner with them. The fun, laughters and the things we talked about. Oh God, Thanks guys... Really Thanks Alot... We talked about alot of stuffs, mostly craps though. Haha, about school life especially. Those naughty days we spent at our secondary school. eg, throwing wet tissues on the ceilings of the toilets. HAHA. That was fun huh. Really had a good laugh when with you guys. I haven't had such a good laugh since after O levels. Really, you guys made my day yesterday.

Also, I wanna specially thanks Caleb for telling me something he had always wanted to tell me. He said, "I am very encouraged and supportive of your presences in coming to Church." Really. He told me that, though many people keep telling me that too. I don't know why but I really felt a sense of closeness towards them. It's as though I knew them long time ago, back then. After that, we all took flight and went home. Was sitting MRT with Benn and Mervin, and then we were talking halfway, and something rang my phone. Was an Sms. Benn and Mervin both recieved an sms at the same time too. Guess who it was? Haha. It was Caleb! So sweet man this guy. He sent us each an sms, though it was the same msg, but it said "though we were in the same church, but we seldom talked ya. Thanks God for the fellowship tonight." It was pleasing to hear that. So, Benn wanted us to read the Sms one word at a time see whether it was the same msg afterall. And we did. Haha. So Funny! We were laughing like mad in the MRT la. Hahahahaha. Then, we wanted to reply him a msg saying "Next time just send one person an Sms and after at the end say Show It To Everyone Else." Haha, so that he won't have to waste the sms sending to everyone yeah. Wasn't that a good idea? Hahahahaha. But honestly, you guys are great! Awesome is all I can say.

Thanks To You - John Angelina's Amen. That's all I want to say.

Signing Off, RoXaS.

2006-08-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

-Simple And Clean- Journal 6 : I miss School!! I really miss those days... But I really regretted what I did those days too... Who knows..? Only God Knows ='(

I miss school~!! I really miss lah.. Cause today just went back to Dunearn to collect my O levels cert. Hais.. Dunearn has not changed much! Still the same old Dunearnnn~ When I step across the gate, many past memories started appearing through my mind. Those long lost memories, those days we spend in class(sleeping, talking craps, fighting. - Everything is wrong, please don't learn ah. lol) those days we made fun of each other(though I was always the victim.), those days we spend on the basketball court.(Truly fun, without you guys, we can't play ya.), those days we eat at the canteen.(Eating like a pig! Aww man, I love and miss the food there man. Esp HorFun, Malay Rice and Cai Fun! Haha.), those days we go around like big bullies, because we are the oldest...(That is so bad, but it was fun la. We didn't really go overboard though.), those days we spend studying together.(Erm, sorry did we do that? lol~~ 5n2 most famous for it's bad behaviour and attitude. How could we even study?) Those days we Pon Ten -Skip lessons-.(This one I think nobody can beat my record ya. In the whole school, I believe I am the top record already. This one I really don't wanna speak about. Top record so? Big deal? Got prize to take? Lame...) Those days we Pon Ten just to go lan shop play Maple, DOTA...?(Fun right? Ya so fun, but what did we achieve in the end...? Bad results? No interest in studying anymore? Lose more morale into waking up so early to go school? What else did we get? Just that little bit of self-enjoyment at that time right? Stupid ME, so foolish...) Those days I did not cherish you.. The "one" and only "you"....(Ya, I regret, I really do. But what can I do now? I think you can't even remember who I am now ya?) Hais.... Those days....... Those precious days.... Those unforgettable and precious days..... How I wish I had a time machine now, to get back to the past and re-do my whole life all over again. I will surely do better than this... Surely, and surely... I would really cherish you guys, you teachers, you friends, "you" and always "you". I promise.... But I guess this won't happen. I know it won't.

Now, guess I am left with nothing in the end right? No more studying, No more friends, No more teachers, No more "Her". So what now? Just look ahead and don't think of the past anymore? How to do that? So easy meh? Easier said than done right.... People reading my blog, please. And I say please... Really please cherish your schooling life now, try to score as much as possible and get to the school u want to get for in the future. No matter how tough it is, please don't give up ok? Try your very best! Give your 100%, or even 200%! I promise you that you won't regret!

Met Mrs. Cheang in school too, had a very nice conversation with her. Didn't know she married le. On December last year. Aww, didn't get to go to her wedding dinner ="( Sadded, but what to do, it's over le. It is so nice talking to her lah.. Didn't had a talk to teachers since back then. Now finally got to talk to one and it was so great. She motivated me alot too. Telling me it's ok to go into the army first and going on further studies after coming out. Listening to her makes me refreshed lah. But when I think of what I did in the past, I was demoralize again... Didn't pay attention to her classes, skipping most of her classes, talking in class, didn't do my coursework properly, not spending enough time studying... All these actions are what makes me who I am today loh.. That patheic and sinful guy which whol I am now... Looking at my results, my behaviour and my attitude shows what a person I was in the past.... But, I was really grateful "God" let me have a chance to speak to her. She was the 1st teacher I met since I reached school today. It's like a blessing man. Haha. (Only those who read this knows ah, I cried when talking to her lah. Cause too many things gone through my mind, and I started thinking all the disgraceful and shameless things I had done in the past.) After the long conversation, she went back to her teaching and I went to the canteen to see see. I saw the uncle selling drinks one! Omg, he is still here. This uncle is my best friend I can say in this school lah. Haha. We always make fun of each other one. Then, always treat me drinks also, like buddy buddy liddat. Haha. Today again he wanted to treat me lah, ask me take any drink I want, but I really can't do that lah. Last time I was immature, so always looking for profits to gain as in wanting people to treat, so self-centered. But now different le. People do grow up yeah? So I took the drink and paid him loh. Then, we had a nice conversation too, talking about how's life now, how we have been doing lately. Was great talking to him too~ He's 50+ and still working so hardly, seeing it makes me feel so bad lah.. But really peifu him also. Imagine ya have to stand so many hours in the stall selling food/drinks, and he's alone somemore loh. Who really knows the pain of doing it? I can see it from the face expression of his. It's so lonely, so depressing and even so hurting. The depressing sighing of his makes me hurt too. But come to think of what he said, "what to do, this is life what. We need to earn a living in Singapore as everything is expensive here, so what can we choose? Have to feed a family, have to feed himself, have to spend here and there, so we can't be picky about money wise...)

After that, went to order HorFun to eat lah, ya know that is my favourite food in school! Don't know why everyone say not really nice to eat, but I really find it nice lah. I love eating it! Maybe cause I am special! hahaha. Or maybe cause I am weird? =_=" Lols.. Doesn't matter, to each it's own right? Then, after that saw Mrs Cheang again! I was talking on the phone with Eddie, so I pass her the phone and she talked to Eddie. Haha, Eddie was like "what the.. so paiseh.." What sia, paiseh for what? Haha. After that, I went home le.. Aaaa, nono after that I went to Lot 1 walk walk, then thinking of going library borrow some books to read, so went down over and check out the books there. Hmm, borrowed afew. 1 is about computers, another is about cards. Was trying to read up about these few books, quite interesting when I first saw it, it caught my attention. Haha lucky books =x , or should I say lucky me? Lols.. Erm after that I went home le...

That is all about it for today ba. I really wish that those reading my blog now will get to know how is life without school if you are not in one. Now my life abit in the mess le lah, so please listen to me ya, no matter you are in sec 1, 2, 3, 4 N levels or O levels candidates, please don't follow my footsteps and concentrate more on your studies now ok. Want talk about games, love relationships or working, do it after your N or O levels. There will be a long break of holidays after your final exams, so please wait for this time and concentrate on your studies in the meantime. And also! Mannners please! Always show manners to everybody, including your friends and teachers and not to say of course your Parents! They are really one of a kind la I tell you.. All of them will be a great help for you in the long run. Trust ME. So cherish your schooling life now before you will regret like me in the late future. =)

~It's Hard To Understand Someone When You Don't Even Understand Yourself In The First Place.~

``Who Really Understands ME?``

Signing Off, RoXas

2006-07-30T01:02:00.000+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Journal 5 : I wait, I am still waiting, I will always be right here waiting for you.

Oh hai yo! I am back to blogging! Yeah finally ya, but seriously speaking, I am *Sick* now. I should be bed-ridden now la, shouldn't be blogging ya. But I couldn't get to sleep, so blog abit to say what I want to say. Haha. Later need to wake up at 7.30am to prepare for church service, and I am sick still can blog haha. I am damn weird la. Don't care la. I promise Frankie no matter what, even if I am sick, I will still be going for the church service at 9am. So no matter what, I have got to wake up later. By hook or by crook. 7.45am lastest. A promise is a promise, man should honor thier words! Haha. Been having quite a high fever just now, now not so bad le. If not can go hospital liao =.= Haha. I blog abit about what I did ba, and about my subtitle too.

My handphone gone! No la, just kidding. It is with Frankie la, because yesterday night actually we were supposed to go play BasketBall de. So Frankie send me home to take the bball and change into my attire, but I only took 10 mins loh, and when I went down to look for them again, both of them gone le. Then worst thing is that my HP with DingHong la, he borrow it to talk to Sulwyn on the phone. And it is like "wth, where did they went? I ask myself." I thought they went to buy drinks or something only, so waited at the void deck for around 10 mins, then cannot tahan already, so immediately went to LimBang to use coin-phone to call Frankie, how patheic could I be man. Haha. He told me he is at home le =.= I was like wtf, at home?!? Then he told me DingHong wanted to go home sleep cause he was tired la, so don't want play Bball already. I was like Super Angry la. How could both of them be so irresponsible man. At least wait for me to come down then say you guys want to go home mah, both of you treat me like a fool liddat, go up and down looking for you guys, but in the end, you were at home =_=..... I was like super down la. So I went home without my HP la. Frankie say the next day, he will pass it back to me. So I waited loh. About 6am+ I called "someone" to ask whether today she will be setting up her stall to sell things anot. She say "Siao ah, call so early. haha. She told me around 7am+ so I went down over to her house and help her carry stuffs loh, then help her set up her stall. After that, was around 8am+ le. So, I called Frankie using coin-phone again la! Must emphaize on this cause it is like how many years never touch it before le. Haha. Then, I went to Frankie's house to retrieve back my beloved lost phone and he told me to wait below his house. After coming down, he brought me over to his dad's office la. Den I was like so paiseh, nothing to do, sit there watch Vcd only. Aiyo. Should have went home and sleep man. Haha. But nvm la, the chinese Vcd show not bad. *Fang De and Miao Cui Hua* Fang De is Fang Shi Yu's father, and Miao Cui Hua is his Mother. Then around 11am+ went to fetch Sulwyn and then we went back to his dad's office again. As usual Vcd again =.=.. haha. I was like damn tired le lah, cause I didn't slept the whole day. Lucky Frankie's mum made coffee for me, if not I will be sleeping there le. Haha. Then, after that we went over to church around 2pm+ intending to play soccer, but the rain was like super heavy man. Raining cats and dogs. Haha. After awhile, the rain stopped, so they continue thier games. I did not play, cause I felt abit sick le. The burning sensastion start coming up le =.=(fever sign) Haha. So, all the time I was resting on the table listening to my BaoBei(MP3) Without it, I am dead for sure! Haha. No music = No Life! After around 5pm+ they stopped playing and packed up le. Then, "someone" called me. She ask me want go watch movie anot, Lake House. So, I asked her about the details of the movie, time, whoever is going, and ask DingHong go also. But I was sick remember? But at that time, I wasn't so badly sick. So I took the risk and went back home and change. (Wei le ni mah, how sick, u ask me go out, I surely go one. =)) Ya total of 5 people went over to Jurong Point, Golden Village Cinema to watch Lake House, at around 9.30pm. But, at that time, I am feeling damn bad le, the pressure of heat is rising up man. I was like totally no mood to even watch that movie. So, about 1/2 of the time, I am closing my eyes enduring the pain, heat, suffering. Arghz. I think DingHong could see it, cause I was sitting beside him la. Breathing furiousely and coughing badly. And worst thing I brought along my jacket, but he took it away and wear la. Ask him return me cause I very cold, den he say later la. That is like wth loh, I am not kidding man, I really very cold la. But it's ok la, I manage to survive this momenturm. About the show, it is quite nice la, those haven't start watching, I recommend you should go watch now. Meaningful and quite hilarious. The book about "Percusaion", is about waiting, waiting for the one you love. And that is why my subtitle writes that. Haha. Was quite sad too la. But the ending was not bad, both lovers got together. It is like being in the present and the future. These 2 love birds are trying to communicate with each other through a special letter box where the letters they wrote immediately sent to each other through a time machine or what? I don't know, can't figure it out, she's in the year 2006, while he is in the year of 2004, so they were actually living 2 years apart. They are trying to discover exactly what they have been missing in their lives. Keanu Reeves very shuai hor? Haha, same as Sandra Bullock, she is pretty too. Both of them are matching. The overall rating I would give for this show is 8/10.

Ya, I think the guy who sat beside "her" is her bf ba. Suddenly feel so hurting man, like heart shattered into pieces liddat. Aiya, nvm la. I very kan kai one right? Hahaha. "Love is not about being together, but seeing each other having to find thier own happiness and grabbing it is however more important than anything else." Yes, somehow I agree with this, but sometimes I think of this too, "Love is about being together, giving each other the true happiness that we have been looking for, and also learning how to grab hold of each other." Haha, this seems to be more fitting yeah, nicer to hear also. But aiya, sometimes we can't get to control of who we like, who we don't like. I always tell myself, "Love cannot be forced one, if not we can't find the true meaning of happiness/joy/touch of it." Ai qing shi bu nen mian qiang de mah right? That is why loh, from that movie onwards, I told myself to "Wait". Though, the feeling for "you" will never change for times, but I believe one day, we will find our own true happiness. (Damn, I look like a coward man, like what the movie says, the lady told the man, "You are just a coward, don't dare to admit to your feelings.") Waa, when I hear this totally poke into me man. I always like this one, to the dearest person, I would always purposely ignore liddat one, people who like the person should try to get close to them right? But I am different leh. Not so close one I would talk more to. I don't know why la, since young I am like this already. Don't have that guts, nor courage to tell "her". I know I have to change, but give me time. I know it's been long, time is endless, but I believe "Love" is more endless and everlasting. SO give me the time I need, give yourself the time you need too. You have to study ya? O levels come on. I don't want you to follow into my footsteps, cause I believe what I did was wrong, I hope no one makes this mistake too. So, please give both of us some time, I believe afterall, I would definately tell "you" how much you meant to me, how much I long for you. Ya after the movie, was around 12am le, so we went home, send both of them home with DingHong and we went home too. Oh ya, not to forget, a big thanks for that tee-shirts you gave me, really was surprising. And I was super happy la, cause in my whole life, "you" are the 1st person, or should I say the 1st girl who gave me shirts as present. They look great! Very very nice, and I won't wear it la, I would keep it as my most beloved sourviner. Haha.

Ok, that is it ba, I am starting to get tired le, I really hope I can wake up later la, cause I don't want to dui bu qi Frankie. But I really get this feeling of having a super high fever and body aches when I wake up la, cause everytime I sleep when I am sick at the moment, the next day when I wake up, I really can't get myself up one. I am weird, that is all I can say. *Praying I would wake up in time later, and also not too sick later, if not I really can't go church le.* (Oh ya, anyone knows the last paper of O levels finish at when? Which date?"

Signing off, RoXaS.

2006-07-28T04:08:00.001+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Journal 4 : "Thinking of what is only good for myself, while neglecting others."

It's been a long time since I last blogged huh. Ya, been missing blogging but because of tiredness, exhaustioness, boredomness, restlessness and sianzationess, I didn't get to blog. Been having lots of sleepless nights again, because going back to my old ways ya. Playing computer games back again till late in the morning, den get to sleep. Damn, I hate this kind of life lah. Ya, just came back to my old game, Shattered Galaxy(SG). Really miss those days back, when I was playing Tactical Commanders(TC). Was 1 of the few top players in a top regiment called *WuDi* (My nick was angelz, those who know me back then should know about this.) That was one hell of a game man, requires lots of coordinations, teamwork, excellent eye and hand contact, communications with team members. I still can remember there was once a tournament held, where we won and got our big big names on the website alone. Some nicks I could really remember now was 1) Syleo, 2) Eclipse, 3) Silvermoon, 4) yltoh, 5) angelz, 6) ShinLevis, 7) Ore0, there were more, I can't recall some of them. The most exciting battle was against RTK - featuring some of the best players in it too, 1) lRTKlSquall, 2) lRTKlZhaoYun, 3) lRTKlHerzog, 4) lRTKlBen, 5) lRTKlSnowyz, 6) lRTKlCaoCao, 7) lRTKlWenBin. These are few names that are worth mentioning because they really did put up a great fight against us, even though they lose by just a bit. I have been playing TC since I was sec 1. I don't know why, but this game really interests me alot, because maybe of it's anxiety, the teamwork, the sportsmanship of the game and also the place to unleashed your stragety thinking, like brainstorming. Haha. Ya, now TC has been taken over by the germans, so I doubt Asia people will be touching on it anymore. That is why SG has taken over TC for it's worldwide playing community. SG is now based on not only for the europeans, nor the US people, but also for asians. So, it is quite fun getting to know more about thier lifestyle, playing attitude and game style. Different people with different mindset ya. Haha. I love this sentence, "To each his own." Ya, now I am currently in the regiment call -Grunts- I will be playing SG again because of the upcoming summer tournament. I wish to take part in it too, cause I have long lost this feeling of being in a team, doing what a team should do. This kind of feeling has long gone when TC was sold to the germans. Now, I am trying to get the feeling back again, and maybe get to know more about myself. Haha. I was supposed to be in 6Days7Nights. But I was seperated from them since last year I quit, because of O levels. But now, nobody really remembers me, so I can't really join back to 6D7N again. That was like so ehh, damn it. 6D7N was a top-pier regiment in pier to Einherjar(EHJ) before, and currently now also. I was like so wasted loh, left such a good regiment to train on with. Now come back left with nothing. Lucky Uncle TD still remember me, so he accepted me into -Grunts- Phew, at least I am in a team now ya. It's ok, what is past is past. So no use lingering to it. Haha, when I so kan kai sia =.=.. Ya, that is all about the games part. (Still waiting for the reply from the Refree Team for the WCG Asian Championship.) *Waiting patiently* Tick Tock Tick Tock. Haha.

Ya must be wondering why my subtitle is that way right? Haha, ya I must admit DingHong really hit the nail when he told me that la. He said "Ni zi hui wei zhi ji zhao xiang, bu hui wei bie ren zhao xiang de leh.) Meaning I only think what is good for myself, and ignoring others. Hais, when I heard that, really super sad la, totally hit the nail man. Like a knife poke through my heart liddat. Damn pain. It really made me go through what he said, and think back of alot alot alot of stuffs man. I was like totally no mood liao. Cause that time Sulwyn was waiting for us at SML Cafe, but DingHong call me last min say she waiting, so ask me hurry up and change den meet him at lot 1. But I took quite a long time to get down, taking my own sweet time =.= Den DingHong say "You don't know Sulwyn cannot go home late meh? Walk like ah gua, so slow." Den say I only think of myself, ignoring others loh. But really sorry ah Sulwyn, I know I took quite abit of time to get down, but I was actually preparing something for my parents. So took abit of time. A Big Sorry to ya! And also about the Johor trip, last minute then tell you my passport expire le, I was like damn paiseh lah. Don't even dare to talk to you anymore liao. Haha. Paiseh for making you make a wasted trip to Frankie's dad office. I really must change la! Must spare more thoughts, feelings for others. Cannot always put myself in front of others. Arghhz. Ya, after that we went to play Bball at Frankie's house downstairs. Lose to DingHong 5-0 lah. Wa lao, paiseh man! Haha. Aiya, don't know la, I shouldn't lose so badly, maybe cause I am really vulnerable to darkness ba. My contact lens no night vision leh. Haha. How good if have, then won't lose until so cham le. Haha. Nvm, next time again ah DingHong! After that, we went buy drinks den went home le. Was exhausted lah, so I didn't get to blog about it. Now blogging for the past few days lol.

Signing Off, RoXaS.

2006-07-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

Hebe - 只對你有感覺

Last but not least, this is the final one for the day. I am tired, still got to go find DingHong lah. I don't know where he go, didn't on his HP, didn't call me nor Frankie. I sense something is wrong. So I will be going over to his house later on to check up on him. Hope I don't faint on the road when I am walking there lah. Haha.

Ok about this video, this song is defiantely my favourite. Though this video isn't Hebe that is on the mv, but it is surely/confirm/100% her voice lah! This girl I don't know who lah, quite cute but cannot compare to Hebe lah, she is the most cute le! Wahaha. How I wish she was the one mving this video, see her change those clothes would be damn nice lah. Haha. But I seriously hate that guy at the start, who says "Di yi ci geng wo yue hui yao chuan piao liang yi dian wor, bu ran wo hui heng diu lian wor." It is like "wtf lah, who cares about you.." If you really like someone, it doesn't matters what she wears loh, even if she wear not nice, I would also think she is the best. Shitty phrase from him! Get a life lah, haha. Btw, this song is from Hebe dueting with Fei Lun Hai. What seh, duet with him for what? Might as well duet with ME right?! I can sing better! Muahaha. Just kidding lah, both are great singers. They fit completely well in this song. Claps for both of them. More claps to Hebe, cause why? Cause she is my "baobei" lah~! Duhz. Haha. Ok lah, enough of this. Oh ya this song is abit short in this mv, I will try to find the full version of it soon. But no matter what this song is a "must" listen one, cause these are the words I want to say to "You"!

微笑再美再甜不是你的都不特别
眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰又是晴天
靠的再近再贴少了拥抱就算太远
全世界只对你(你)有感觉

玩的再疯再野你瞪一眼我就收敛
马路再宽再远只要你牵就很安全
我会又乖又黏温柔体贴绝不敷衍
我只对你有感觉

Signing off, RoXaS.

2006-07-24T20:05:00.000+08:00

Hebe - Mo Tian Lun.

Another video/song to add on. A nice song by Hebe. A solo mv with her sitting on a mo tian lun. Haha. So cute! Aiya, whatever she do also cute one lah. Hahaha, paiseh I know I am too crazy over her le. I will try to control abit =x

Click on > "Play" to listen ya. Great song!

2006-07-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

Hebe - Eyes fang dian!

Too tired to blog, restless and frustrated too lah. Will blog in the upcoming days, for now I will just have to blog afew videos to share with everyone and also to lighten my mood.

This video is damn cute lah, of course not the video cute, it is the person inside who is cute! Haha, and the one I am speaking is the main role of this video lah, Hebe! Oh my, look at her man, she can really make use of her eyes to fang dian man. I was like totally electrocuded when I 1st look at this video lah. And after that, I was like smiling all the way lah, only "She" can do it man. Haha. (Actually, there is someone who can do it too. Whenever I look at "her", no matter is when she is studying, playing sports, or whatever, I would just smile in no secs lah. I don't know why, but there is a feeling there I suppose.) Ok back to Hebe, oh god, by looking at her, all my frustrations simply just disappear lah. Haha. She is heavenly to my eyes lah, haha, am I too exggerating? Haha, but I don't care lah, even if I am, I simply just like the way she is. That is all, period. Haha~

Signing off, RoXaS.

2006-07-21T00:02:00.000+08:00

Kangta and Vanness - Scandal

Great video~ I love thier dancing lah, fabulous!(Learning now =x). They both so "Shuai" + thier body fixtures and somemore. And the song really fits in to the rythem lah. That is why I like this song now man. My Favourite! Haha. Cool!

2006-07-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Journal 3 : Together we grow with Faithfulness and Fruitfulness.

Aloha, it's me again yeah. So sian, come in only see one person reading my blog. Haha, as though it is our private blogging conversation like that. But, really thanks lah yl! As least you bother to read~ I am happy and contended with that already ya. Haha.

Today ah, quite a number of things happened lah. 1st was that from my previous post, I was supposed to call DingHong wake up for work at 5am right. And ya, this one is not "as usual" ah. But it is super unpredictable that I fell asleep when I finish writing the previous post. It was 4.45am loh. And another 15 mins I have to call him le, and to my least expected, I fell asleep on the computer table. That was so arghh man. Didn't manage to call "her" wake up at 6am too, didn't feed my cats too.(Think they must be damn hungry le lah.) I am so guility!! Curse me man! Haha. I don't know why lah, maybe is because I am really too tired. Or maybe is because I am just plain-lazy? Argh, doesn't matter, what is done cannot be undone. DingHong didn't went to work lah, he told me he has got a bad sorethroat. Sickened, and he did told his mum about it. So I think it's all right ba. Ya said sorry to "her" and worst thing is I feel bad when I see Frankie lah, I promise him that I will call DingHong wake up de, but I didn't kept my word. I am such a wimp lah. zzz (Must learn to keep my words man, I feel so sickening when I don't.) Ya, didn't watch any of my movies I downloaded, fell into a deep sleep till 2 in the afternoon lah. Can see that I am very tired hor, or is it that I am a "Pig"? Haha. Doesn't matter. I will watch at least 2 later on.

After waking up, went to do some stuffs and then finally reached the climax!(My climax = To watching animes lah. Haha.) Yaya, watch 2 kinds, D.N Angel and Get Backers. D.N Angel was nice man. Cute anime! This is briefly a small description of the show.
D.N Angel -The dark side of love indeed! After being bluntly rejected on his 14th birthday by school crush Risa Harada, sweet-tempered Daisuke Niwa finds himself chemically transformed into the legendary Phantom Thief Dark, a shadow in the Niwa family history. Sucked into stealing artwork and unleashing curses on the town and its people, Daisuke finds himself turning into his alter-ego whenever he thinks of Risa, who, to make things worse, only has eyes for the dangerous Dark!Until he can get Risa to love him, Daisuke is trapped in a double life as student-cum-master art thief, in this romantic action-comedy based on Yukiru Sugisaki's wildly popular manga series!
As stated, it is a romatic + action based show, so anything to do with that should be nice one lah. Haha. I seems like an advertiser, promoting the show I made. Haha. Ya, the next part was the Get Backers! Oh my, this is one hell of a show man. Those anime-lovers couldn't miss this one out lah. I feel that all the animes I watched, this is the best of all already. A slight introduction of this anime too.
Get Backers -Ban Mido and Ginji Amano are a recovery duo infamously known as "Get Backers". Ban possesses two special powers: the "Snake Bite" (his hand shave a gripping power of 200kg) and the "Evil Eye" (anyone who looks into his eyes will be locked into a powerful and nightmarish hallucination). Ginji, on the other hand, has the ability to generate thousands of volts of electricity from his body. He is formally known as the Thunder Emperor, who is the leader of the VOLTS. Together, they run a freelance business of recovering anything lost or stolen from a client-and they claim a 100% success rate at their job.
Ya, today's episode was super nice lah, I can't imagine there are any more episodes left, but this isn't the last man. I thought that was the ending already, but to my surprise, there are more coming up! Woohoo. I love Doctor Jackal! He is so damn cool man. Wears everything black, and looks so cold towards others. Best thing is his J skills, kills an enemy at the slightest second. Oh my so fast. Oh man, godly is all I can say for him.(But he still loses to Gingi Amano, the Thunder Emperor.) Gingi is Unstoppable lah, when he transforms into the Thunder Emperor. Lucky, that time Ban Mido encourage him to leave his post as the leader of the VOLTS, and left MayCity. If not now, I think MayCity is just only a desert without a soul. Haha. The VOLTS consists of 4 lutienents, Kazuki(the holder of strings), Siedo(the controller of animals), Haruki(the always smiling guy, holder of a whip) and lastly Makubez(the controller of computers generating clones). Ya, Gingi left the VOLTS and everything thumbled down. It was disbanded and each went thier own ways. Now, everything is back together again. And they had to fight thier own friends now, Makubez became evil, trying to use his genetic clones to build up a nuclear atomic device to discriminate MayCity, using the powers of Battleion City. It was damn nice lah, the journey towards the tower of Battleion City is the best, fighting lots and lots of strong opponents. In the end, they did stopped Makubez from using the nuclear device because of Ban Mido's evil eye again, as usual ya. The famous 1 minute dream, making you unable to control yourself. Putting you into a deep nightmarish hallucation, is like a fear that turns alive. That is like so fun man, how I wish I have that power too. Haha, now it's my turn dreaming yea. Ya, after that, went to my comp to surf the net, listen to musics and found out about WCG 2006 Asian Championship! Oh my my, they are recruiting Refrees to marshall the games there. And I did apply! Woo, how I wished I will get into the refrees team and learn something from them. I have always wished this would happen man. Hope my prayers come true! Haha. The webby, http://asian.worldcybergames.com/ Then later on comes Frankie's call. He ask me where I am, what I doing, then ask me go cafe. He and Sulwyn jus borrowed a dvd to watch. So, I prepared myself and went out le. Reach there around 8pm le. Was too bored lah, didn't wanted to watch also. So I went to play pool alone. "As usual." Good way to Vent Frustration and also train up my Accuracy. Ya while playing, I recieve a mysterious call and to my surprise,(this is really a surprise lah.) the call was from the Refree recruitment team! And it is like, wtf i just apply only den so fast the call came? I was too shocked when he said "Are you Roxas? You apply for the marshalling as a refree right?" I was like, Oh no, ur hur. I did. He then asked me which days of the games taking place would I be free on, I replied saying all the days are fine with me, I ain't busy on any days. He said Ok, that's good. I will get to you shortly, he will let me know the outcome soon! Omg. Unbelieveable ya? Haha. I was so glad I did made the move! Wee~ After the show, played a few rounds with Sulwyn and Frankie. Ok lah, not so bad. Got lose, got win. After that, Frankie send both of us home and he went home too. He was complaining lah, "Damn tired lah, wake up so early blah blah blah. Blah blah black sheep any any wool(oops, why am i starting to sing? =x) yaya, and I told him go sleep ba, actually wanted to ask him go eat de, cause I haven't eat dinner lah. Haha. But it's ok. I bought nasi lemak home. Now eating + blogging. Haha.

Ya, I think that is all for today ba. Will have to stop for now, if not I am really getting too naggy with this thingy already. Haha. Ok ciaoz. Thanks for those that are spending thier time reading, I know it's long, as usual ya. =_=" Bye.

Signing off, RoXaS.

2006-07-20T03:05:00.000+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Journal 2 : With Great Powers, comes with Great Responsibilities.

Yo0o, it's me again! Haha, just came back home from SML Cafe with Frankie, DingHong and Sulwyn. Was actually supposed to have 10 people at Cafe de. But don't know why only 8 turned up. 2 of them don't know go where, haha whatever lah. Doesn't really matters alot. We ate quite alot, FnC made from our cook, Mr DingHong again lah. Haha. He is only good at making FnC =_=" haha. I love the ice cream, long long time never touch it le. Especially with those toppings to add. There was like 8 different kind of toppings man. Oh my, delicious and sweet!(But getting diabetics soon lah, that Frankie go add lots of rainbow toppings on my icecream. Making me so difficult to eat. Haha.) But it's ok, long long time never eat sweet sweet stuffs le. Feels kinda "Shuang". Haha. Ya, and as usual lah! That DingHong never fails to play pool at SML! And worst thing is he keep dragging me to play, we were watching Daisy lah. zzz and he keep forcing me to play. Damn it, I miss a good show man. Daisy is a nice show loh, alamak. Nvm, I will look for it again. That show was borrowed from Sulwyn I think, not very sure. Ya, played quite a few rounds. Getting abit bored with pool already. Haha. Before SML, we went to watch "Cars". This show really shocked me man. I was expecting to waste this $7.50 at this show, but to my least expected, I was wrong in the end. Starting abit no meaning, but when it comes to the climax, it got more interesting + amusing + meaningful. The ending part was fabulous lah. (Shhh, only to those that read my blog knows this ah, don't tell people ok. I did drop afew "tears" when the last race took place, when Lightning McQueen did not cross the finishing line, but instead went to push his opponent who was banged up and injuried to the finishing line. That was like so "noble" man. How could anyone at the finishing part did manage to think about his opponent at that time? I was like, totally stunned.) And it was like damn touching lah, couldn't resist dropping some "tears" leh. Haha. Lucky nobody in the cinema knows ah, think Sulwyn didn't notice ba, I was sitting beside her leh. Phew. Ya, I did learn something about the show too, "Winning isn't about everything. Life is about the journey that took place, not about the finishing line." Thanks to Frankie, who introduce me this movie and asked me along to watch it. Today was the last day publishing at cinemas, was glad I didn't miss it. =) That is all about what I spent in the afternoon and at night ba.

Ya, just came back home, did some house chores(washing my clothes, ironing them, helping my mum clean some stuffs, bathing, and grabbing a bite.) Now very tired ya, and still writing so much, am I very naggy? Haha. I find that I can talk super super alot alot in the internet lah, but when on real life, I tend to keep very quiet, especially to err hem(girls lah). Haha. I do notice about this lah, those around me should also know hor. Don't know lah, my personality is like this one. I also don't know why. Now, lets talk about what I watched yesterday morning ya. I finally get to watch my SpiderMan 2 lah. Damn, it is super nice man!(I know I abit outdated ya, now then watch SpiderMan 2.) Haha. Cannot blame lah, last time I don't have my own comp, so I can't download whatever movies I want to watch. Now can le! Any movies or whatever I also can watch! Yeah! Those great movies I had missed before, now I must slowly go find out and catch up le. Haha. Oops, OOT le. Back to SpiderMan 2 huh, great movie with inspiring aspects ya. My head title already shows one. Haha. And also "Love is never a secret, if you keep something inside, you will get sicked." I agree with this! Haha. Another one is "If you ever want a woman to fall for you, read a poetry, it never fails." This one abit complicated le. I honestly never read one before. Haha. Last but not least, "Intelligence is not a previledge, it's a gift. Use it for the good of Mankind." Interesting yet profound to some. All these are the things I learned. About the story part, very dramatic, exciting and heartbreaking. Haha. SpiderMan known as Peter Parker finally gets to abandon his secret life, and confess to Mary Jane. But as usual, the baddie starts razing the streets again, now he has got no choice but to become "SpiderMan" again. In the end, M.J finally found out that Peter Parker is SpiderMan all along. She knew it all along too. Haha. The baddie(Doctor Octopus) also got drowned with his whatever-energy-stuff-machine lah. Don't know what is it all about lah. Haha. And ya! As usual, baddie will never creased to extinct lah! Doctor Doom's son got to find out about his Father's mystery room with lots of stuffs in there. That is why SpiderMan 3 is coming out real soon. Lets hope this one will be even better than SpiderMan 2. I believe it will. Haha.

Yup, after watching finish, I went to download more movies! Hahaha! Prepare for the next few nights mah. Got Incredible Hulk, DareDevil, Elektra, Spirited Away. Mostly all from Marvel Comics and Walt Disney lah. I loved those stories man. Ya, later will be watching DareDevil ba. Then, the next day I will explain what I learned from it again. Haha. Every show also got thier meaning one ok! After that, it was already 5.30, so I went down to feed cats again~ Same old usual stuff. Nothing unusual happened. And oh ya, I was suppose to call DingHong wake up to go work, but I called 20+ times, he never even pick up 1 of my call lah, and still dare to "kup" my phone, and off his hp somemore. It is like "wtf, did he went to work anot?" I was like damn worried loh, if he didn't, I really don't know what Frankie is gonna do with him. His mum will be damn disappointed too. Arghh! But lucky later on, I found out from Frankie that he did went to work lah, I was like "Heng ah, God bless him man." Haha. Phew. And ya finally reached 6am, time to call someone wake up to go school. As usual, her sleepy voice again ya! That "Hello, *Yawns* I don't feel like going school, so tired, want to sleep more again." Haha, cute lah, but aiya, another 4 more months! Jiayou ah! Must Endure yeah! Though I know this doesn't help much, but at least to let you know that "someone" does wake up at the same time with you to help you jiayou, even though he doesn't need to wake up so early lah. Haha.(Actually, is never sleep at all, so don't need to "wake up" haha.) I afraid if I sleep hor, can't wake up in time to call you wake up, and feed my cats too. So I rather not sleep, spend some time watching movies and reading books ba. After that, I went home and catch a quick nap, then Frankie call me go out watch movie le. And oh ya, I miss my anime lah! The final battle which i spoke about at my previous post. But lucky ah, nvm. I got record it down before I went out to watch movie. Haha. Tommorrow I will spend some time watching it ba.

Ya, that is all about it ba. It is already 4.30am le lah. Time for me to stop le ba. Damn Tired! Maybe not watching DareDevil le. Got not much time, I tink I listen to some music and surf the net to 5+ den go down feed cats le. Ok ba, that is all for today. Damn, I am still writing alot loh, I see the post so long, I also don't even feel like reading lah. Haha. Don't know you guys feel the same anot? =X

Signing off, RoXaS.

2006-07-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Journal 1 : Life is about giving, what have you given for today?

Hello! It is me again. The rightful owner of this blog ya? I am bored ya, defiantely. Always been, and will always be. Haha. So here am I again, back to my chatty little box to express what I had been through today. (Eh, actually as you can see my 1st post was at 7.11am in the morning today. Why am I posting another in the same day huh?) I don't know ya, someone told me to post something since I have nothing to do right now. Haha. And "She" is doing her homework right now, watching tv + talking to me, and someone else? =_=" Can't believe it, how does someone can actually multi task until liddat. Haha, so weird! I need to hide in my room whenever I study, if not I get distracted super easily, losing my concentration. Or maybe actually, I am the weird person over here? Haha.

Okok, time to start with what I had for today, starting with a person call DingHong lah! I mention in my 1st post that he was at my house in the super early morning loh, he came at around 2am in the morning, making me unable to sleep a wink. I don't know lah, but I was very touched when he actually sms me a word "Sorry" after we depart from SML Cafe. The story was actually like this, we were walking back home, Frankie didn't send us back home because he was having a headache. So when walking on the streets, we managed to talk alot about our past, about work, and stuffs. I walked with him all the way till his house, and before departing off from his house, he wanted to borrow my mp3 player. I didn't wanted to lend him because I got to fix my mp3 abit, it is getting abit rusty ya. So I told him off, he went angry and started scolding vulguarities at me lah, and ya come on, it was damn rude man. I didn't wanted to fight with him, so I just walked away. And to my least expected, I recieved a sms when I reached home. It said "Sorry..." and it was from him. I was very shocked lah, the DingHong I know wouldn't say "Sorry" to me one. So i immediately called him and asked him why he say "Sorry"? He told me "why cannot ah?" "I like to say sorry, I say loh." Haha, this guy hor, looks firece, but quite cute in some ways. Ya, and I apologise to him too, and told him that I will look for him at 5am to lend him the player before he go off to his mum's place to help his mum cook wanton mee. Then, he started saying "nvm lah, I go your house now." and it is like "wtf, now what time liao" haha. I was actually going to watch SpiderMan 2 lah! I just download finish the day before yesterday. But, he came and started using the comp to play WarCraft 3 le. Damn him! Haha. But nvm lah, God stated that life is about giving and sharing, so I think that is it ba. Haha. And ya, we both didn't sleep, and he is actually suppose to help his mum right? Ya and it was already 5.30am le lah, and he is still playing. I wanted to scream at him lar, promise his mum and he didn't turn up again. It is like damn it man, I hate people who do this. I told him off again, and ask him to call his mum to let her know. He did, his mum was super angry as usual lah, if it was me, I will be too lah. He wanted to work half day only, cause he was tired, didn't had sleep. But his mum just heck care about him and "kup" the phone. Worst thing is he is angry now too, den he told me he don't care lah, then I told him I need to feed cats, den he say he pei me go =_=.. Ya, as usual same old place again. They are waiting for me there. Fed them with DingHong lah, he was much of a hassle than helping lah!! I was super frustrated + a sad kind of feeling when he took a fish net from the door of a corridor and net the small kitten lah. I almost scolded the F out of him loh, how could he be so cruel man. But indeed, I suddenly feel a pain in my heart when I saw the kitten trying to break free from the net, using his head to bang the net. I don't know why, maybe it seems that I have a deep feelings for them already. After feeding and clearing up, we depart off to our own homes. This time, he called his mum again, his mum told him to come at 11am(ya this is his only chance to help himself now.) But, as expected he couldn't wake up in time lah, I reminded him lots of times, this "Promise" must be kept! But as usual, he didn't do it again. Ya lah, I am on the "don't know what to say mode" le lah. Soon to came, Frankie knew about it too, he was super "dulan" with him again. The way Frankie spoke to me was the " super dulan" mode, I can say. Now, I really don't know how to help DingHong le lah, Frankie is starting to heck care about him liao.

Ya, that is mostly all about what I had for today ba, other than those, I was having my sleep and watching animes, shows and of cause my musics. Animes was super nice today lah, especially the Get Backers. Omg man, it is one of the best animes I had ever watched. Tommorrow will be the final battle ya! Gengi the Thunder Emperor VS Mekubaz the God of Cloning. I must watch this man, can't miss it if not I will die lah. Haha. And ya tommorrow will be going down to SML Cafe with Frankie(and maybe with DingHong) because Frankie told me tommorrow night there will be church people coming down to play or something? Maybe, I can join in the fun ba? Haha, I hope so. And ya, tommorrow DingHong got to wake up at 5am again to go over to help his mum, and this time I really pray/hope/wish that he could make it. If not, I am really beginning to lose the "Hope" in him.

Ya, that is all about for today ba, will continue tommorrow when I reach home. Got lots and lots to write, don't know when then can finish lah, haha.

Signing off, Roxas.

2006-07-18T07:11:00.000+08:00

-Simple and Clean- Newbie blogger.

Hey! It's my first time blogging. Feels kinda weird, don't really know how to get things up, but i am trying to learn now ya. Haha. Pardon me if I make any mistakes or what yeah, must explain to me also. Haha thanks in advance. =)~ Ya, and also forgive me for my poor unspoken english. I know it is bad, but try to tolerate abit ya. =D~

Hmm, and since it is my 1st time doing this, why not give a simple introduction about myself?

I will just start off with my what I do normally at home. Watching Anime will be my 1st piroity, those who know me well should had known of this. Those who didn't, then please start knowing ya. Haha. My favourite anime series for now will be the Get Backers, Saber Marionette J to X, D.N Angel(Tv Animation), GTO and not to forget Miyazaki's Spirited Away. Next will be Music ya! Music is defiantely part of my life! Songs by S.H.E - Hebe!, Sweety, 5566, Jay Zhou and some nice romantic english songs not to be missed =) I got watch some Drama Serials too ok! I am not mountain tortoise ya. Haha. Those that I love are MvP Valentine, Westside Story, Mr Fighting, Green Light Forest, mostly all from 5566 and sweety, haha cause I am their fan! Other than all those I mention, reading books is also one of my "hobby". Haha, can't imagine right? A sec 5 O levels dropout actually does "read" books at home =_=" Unbelieveable right? loly. Mostly what kind of books I read are self-upgrading books, consisting of how to improve my standard of living life, managing my life and not to mention upgrading myself. Books consists of "Who move my cheese, by S.J" "How to win friends and influence people, by John C Maxell" "Think and grow rich, by Napolean Hill" "21 irrestiable laws of leadership, by John C Maxell" and also "Fish, by S.J" These are books that helped me quite along through these months. Last but not least, dancing is one of my hobbies too, I love to dance when there is music. Haha. Don't know why, can't control my legs. Normally doing some breakdance and hiphop, that is all ba.

Other than those that I mention, normally I would spend more time outside, going to the movies, playing sports, especially BasketBall. Though , I do not excel in it, but I always play it to my fullest, no matter my opponent is strong or weak. For now, most of my time are spent with Frankie and DingHong ya. These 2 buddies are fun man. 1 is my boss, another is my collegue? Haha. Cheers to both of them lar! They are great! Just knew both of them not long ago, abt afew weeks ba. Been having quite alot of fun with them, especially at SML Cafe! The pool table! That is the place where we will qie chuo our skills. Loser Punch ya! Haha. Though most of the time, I lose, but don't play play ok you both, I haven't show my true skills yet only! Hahaha. Great pals! Though we still don't know each other well yet, but I believe I am starting to indulge more into this friendship. Don't worry guys, we will get to know more of each other soon. And of course not to mention what I always do in the early morning at 5.45am, my 8 cats! They are always waiting for me at the void deck, not below my house, but opposite of Limbang, not far, but not near too. Haha. Those 8 lucky cats always get to eat good stuffs huh, eat until my pocket now no money to feed myself le lar. Haha. But nvm, when there is a will, there is a way! Tian xia mei you juan ren zhi lu! I believe, and I had always believed! =D Actually, my favourite animal is dogs leh, but don't know why my yuan fen with cats more. Haha. Maybe, that is what life is all about ba. Sometimes, you can't get what you want, but you will get what you least "expected". But, it is all right with me lar, I don't mind anyway. (I have to call someone to wake up at 6am everyday too. =x) Tiring ya, but it's ok, as long as you are happy, I am happy and fine with it too. =]~

That is simply all about my life ba. (Oh ya, maybe something to add along. Why I call myself a wanderer? Maybe is because I like to be alone, though being alone is very lonely, but it makes me think better ya, maybe even makes me "Miss" the person more. Haha. I dunno lar, I am weird, that is all I can say for myself.)

Ok, I think time to stop le ba, time for me to get some sleep too ya. Didn't get to sleep last night. Was all along awake with DingHong at my house lar! That guy hor! Alamak. But it's ok, someone told me to be "nice" hor, must remember! Haha. And btw, I think I am getting too chatty with this bloggy thing le. I am introvert outside, but super extrovert in the internet lar! Weird!!

Signing off, Roxas.