Tuesday, August 29, 2006 0 comments

-Simple And Clean- Journal 6 : I miss School!! I really miss those days... But I really regretted what I did those days too... Who knows..? Only God Knows ='(

I miss school~!! I really miss lah.. Cause today just went back to Dunearn to collect my O levels cert. Hais.. Dunearn has not changed much! Still the same old Dunearnnn~ When I step across the gate, many past memories started appearing through my mind. Those long lost memories, those days we spend in class(sleeping, talking craps, fighting. - Everything is wrong, please don't learn ah. lol) those days we made fun of each other(though I was always the victim.), those days we spend on the basketball court.(Truly fun, without you guys, we can't play ya.), those days we eat at the canteen.(Eating like a pig! Aww man, I love and miss the food there man. Esp HorFun, Malay Rice and Cai Fun! Haha.), those days we go around like big bullies, because we are the oldest...(That is so bad, but it was fun la. We didn't really go overboard though.), those days we spend studying together.(Erm, sorry did we do that? lol~~ 5n2 most famous for it's bad behaviour and attitude. How could we even study?) Those days we Pon Ten -Skip lessons-.(This one I think nobody can beat my record ya. In the whole school, I believe I am the top record already. This one I really don't wanna speak about. Top record so? Big deal? Got prize to take? Lame...) Those days we Pon Ten just to go lan shop play Maple, DOTA...?(Fun right? Ya so fun, but what did we achieve in the end...? Bad results? No interest in studying anymore? Lose more morale into waking up so early to go school? What else did we get? Just that little bit of self-enjoyment at that time right? Stupid ME, so foolish...) Those days I did not cherish you.. The "one" and only "you"....(Ya, I regret, I really do. But what can I do now? I think you can't even remember who I am now ya?) Hais.... Those days....... Those precious days.... Those unforgettable and precious days..... How I wish I had a time machine now, to get back to the past and re-do my whole life all over again. I will surely do better than this... Surely, and surely... I would really cherish you guys, you teachers, you friends, "you" and always "you". I promise.... But I guess this won't happen. I know it won't.

Now, guess I am left with nothing in the end right? No more studying, No more friends, No more teachers, No more "Her". So what now? Just look ahead and don't think of the past anymore? How to do that? So easy meh? Easier said than done right.... People reading my blog, please. And I say please... Really please cherish your schooling life now, try to score as much as possible and get to the school u want to get for in the future. No matter how tough it is, please don't give up ok? Try your very best! Give your 100%, or even 200%! I promise you that you won't regret!

Met Mrs. Cheang in school too, had a very nice conversation with her. Didn't know she married le. On December last year. Aww, didn't get to go to her wedding dinner ="( Sadded, but what to do, it's over le. It is so nice talking to her lah.. Didn't had a talk to teachers since back then. Now finally got to talk to one and it was so great. She motivated me alot too. Telling me it's ok to go into the army first and going on further studies after coming out. Listening to her makes me refreshed lah. But when I think of what I did in the past, I was demoralize again... Didn't pay attention to her classes, skipping most of her classes, talking in class, didn't do my coursework properly, not spending enough time studying... All these actions are what makes me who I am today loh.. That patheic and sinful guy which whol I am now... Looking at my results, my behaviour and my attitude shows what a person I was in the past.... But, I was really grateful "God" let me have a chance to speak to her. She was the 1st teacher I met since I reached school today. It's like a blessing man. Haha. (Only those who read this knows ah, I cried when talking to her lah. Cause too many things gone through my mind, and I started thinking all the disgraceful and shameless things I had done in the past.) After the long conversation, she went back to her teaching and I went to the canteen to see see. I saw the uncle selling drinks one! Omg, he is still here. This uncle is my best friend I can say in this school lah. Haha. We always make fun of each other one. Then, always treat me drinks also, like buddy buddy liddat. Haha. Today again he wanted to treat me lah, ask me take any drink I want, but I really can't do that lah. Last time I was immature, so always looking for profits to gain as in wanting people to treat, so self-centered. But now different le. People do grow up yeah? So I took the drink and paid him loh. Then, we had a nice conversation too, talking about how's life now, how we have been doing lately. Was great talking to him too~ He's 50+ and still working so hardly, seeing it makes me feel so bad lah.. But really peifu him also. Imagine ya have to stand so many hours in the stall selling food/drinks, and he's alone somemore loh. Who really knows the pain of doing it? I can see it from the face expression of his. It's so lonely, so depressing and even so hurting. The depressing sighing of his makes me hurt too. But come to think of what he said, "what to do, this is life what. We need to earn a living in Singapore as everything is expensive here, so what can we choose? Have to feed a family, have to feed himself, have to spend here and there, so we can't be picky about money wise...)

After that, went to order HorFun to eat lah, ya know that is my favourite food in school! Don't know why everyone say not really nice to eat, but I really find it nice lah. I love eating it! Maybe cause I am special! hahaha. Or maybe cause I am weird? =_=" Lols.. Doesn't matter, to each it's own right? Then, after that saw Mrs Cheang again! I was talking on the phone with Eddie, so I pass her the phone and she talked to Eddie. Haha, Eddie was like "what the.. so paiseh.." What sia, paiseh for what? Haha. After that, I went home le.. Aaaa, nono after that I went to Lot 1 walk walk, then thinking of going library borrow some books to read, so went down over and check out the books there. Hmm, borrowed afew. 1 is about computers, another is about cards. Was trying to read up about these few books, quite interesting when I first saw it, it caught my attention. Haha lucky books =x , or should I say lucky me? Lols.. Erm after that I went home le...

That is all about it for today ba. I really wish that those reading my blog now will get to know how is life without school if you are not in one. Now my life abit in the mess le lah, so please listen to me ya, no matter you are in sec 1, 2, 3, 4 N levels or O levels candidates, please don't follow my footsteps and concentrate more on your studies now ok. Want talk about games, love relationships or working, do it after your N or O levels. There will be a long break of holidays after your final exams, so please wait for this time and concentrate on your studies in the meantime. And also! Mannners please! Always show manners to everybody, including your friends and teachers and not to say of course your Parents! They are really one of a kind la I tell you.. All of them will be a great help for you in the long run. Trust ME. So cherish your schooling life now before you will regret like me in the late future. =)

~It's Hard To Understand Someone When You Don't Even Understand Yourself In The First Place.~

``Who Really Understands ME?``

Signing Off, RoXas









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