-Simple And Clean- Journal 8: The Time I Long For, Entrust It To Me For I Promise You It Will
Not Take Me A Lifetime To Change.
Grrr, super lazy to blog la. Haha, whatever.. Tired, feeling crappy, exhausted like not enough sleep, random thoughts, thinking back, crazy plans. This is what I have been having these last few days. Sleep quite alot also no use, wake up le still very very tired... Seems like I'm getting weaker day by day. Where is the strength! Where is the power. I may need "something", that "something" that can help me tide myself through. Maybe that "something" was never meant to be found, or maybe it was. I am not sure either. I don't even know what that something is. Guess it's just a mystery, it happened to be and it will always be.
Blog abit only ba, 15 mins more going cafe le. Don't even have the strength to go la, and don't even feel like going. But nvm ba, since I promise Frankie to open the cafe everyday. Den I guess I should honour my words. Ya, those who saw my MSN nick, should have known that I am now abit broke le. Haha, cause yesterday spent quite alot of money la. After cafe closed, Frankie brought me along to fetch Mindy, saying he wants to cut "Mao" means hair la. Haha, don't anyhow think ya. Lols. He ask me want to cut anot, cos honestly la. My hair grow damn fast la. Cut liao afew weeks grow back again. zzz crappy hair. But in the end, I really did cut. Now alot more shorter ba, as in thickness gone, dunno. People told me this one neater la. I don't know, you see it urself den u make a judgement ba. Haha. Ya, at the saloon was Frankie's friend actually. She is a mother of 2 childrens. They went church too. It was Adam and Eve. But I didn't get to see them before. Maybe next time ba. So we had quite a talk in the saloon. Lots of random QnAs lol. Then, Frankie's friend introduce me a girl call Zhiwen. She's same age as me. Studies alot alot, Frankie's friend was actually her aunt la. Now den I know. Haha. Hmm, What can I say. This girl eh dun really know about her. But maybe next time can get to know more. Her aunt keep telling me aboutt her, saying she very anti-social one, saying she only study day and night, no friends one. Hmm, that's very weird, but interesting ya lol. Den her aunt keep encouraging her to go church, so ask me this sunday free anot... =.= ya expected. lol. Ok have to bring her to church this sunday, she still haven't confirm but I really hope she comes cos I guess church is the only place where she can really relax and put her mind at ease. Cos I can see that she's been having lots of stress, pressure lately. Eh, so those reading this who is going to church this sunday! Listen up! Please help me!! =x Hahahaha. Go forth yourself to introduce yourself hor. Cause I also quite new, dunno how to intro also, I guess when I'm talking to her, I would also be shy la. Haha. Maybe that's my fear all along. lol. Time to change it, but takes time right? Give me the time I need, for I know this will not last a lifetime. =)
After that, Frankie fetch me home, but I went to Causeway Point la. Guess nobody knew. Haha. Always alone walking around like a zombie lol. But nvm la. I am used to it. Guess it will always be like this. Doesn't matter, I am more used to this lifestyle. Not bad also, saw alot of nice things, including books, songs, puzzles. Oh ya, who wants to build up a 1000 pieces of jigzaw puzzle with me? Haha, I am looking forward to build one, I saw one very nice 1. About Kingdom Hearts also. Including every characters of the disney world. Example Winnie the Pooh, Mickey, Donald Duck and more etc. But 1000 really no joke la. I only did one 300 pieces before. Quite tiring le. Haha. This is my challenge now, those who wants to build it up with me, bring forth yourself ya. I will need your help. So don't be shy =P Haha. Money I pay, so don't have to worrie =) Just have to spend that time and patience to build it =D Ya as expected, looking at all those nice books and cds, temptations! Can't resist them la. Bought almost all of those that I liked. Broke le! Haha. One nice book is about this title, Chocolate for a Woman's Heart. This is quite a interesting novel. 77 stories of Love, kindness and compassion and the power of unconditional love. I will be taking these few days to read it up ba. Guess I will bring it over to cafe later. heh. Also a nice comic about KH too, oh my. I can't do without KH now la. Guess my world is filled up with those disney characters now. 1 more nice one is the music cd I bought! It's Jay Chou new album! Wooo, super nice la his songs. Last time I super hate him, now I super like him =x He's so cool man, love his voice. Spent around $60 in total. Oh goddess, first time spent so much money in a day la. Didn't even have money to eat dinner HAHA. =.= went home eat bread la... lol. When did I become such a spendthrift =.=.. Nvm, was quite fun anyways. Bought lots of things I like and want. So doesn't matters anymore. Now need to earn money to buy more things! =x
Here's a wishlist for me!
S.H.E Forever New Album. --> Main Pirority. ($15.80) Got Free Posters! Woo! Hebe =x
1000 KH Jigsaw Puzzle. --> Expensive =.= ($51.40)
All Of The Comics Regarding KH, or KH2. ($??.??) Still not sure how many books are there.
Why Are You Here, Cafe. --> It's a book regarding life. ($15.80)
A New Adidas Bag. --> I long for one. ($??.??) lol, not sure pricing yet.
A New Pair Of Adidas Shoes. --> Also wait very long le. ($100+) lol, abit crazy but I like =D
That's all ba, if I continue writing all of them, guess I don't have a tomorrow le. Haha. Too many la. All these are the main pirorities for now. Guess before I can get them, I need to work really hard ya. These are my short term goals! I have to make it no matter what! I Will, I Promise and I Will! =)
Signing Off, RoXaS. (=^ . ^=)
