Today i managed to wake myself up from a tendious sleep with that fever burning on my head. Went for work at the time of like 8am? I was stoning badly, trying to recover myself from that sleepy sleepy gong gong look. Lets not talk about what happened last night. Maybe it's just another trial. Went to work normally as usual, though i still have that little bit of germs fighting in my body but still i'm fine! praise God for this.
Work was fine, pretty much things to do, and thanks to Sulwyn!! really, i was feeling very restless in the afternoon when i was about to go for lunch. and then she called! Oh my, thank you Sulwyn really, you won't understand how much it means to give someone a call of concern. It really means alot. Though I can't make it out with you for lunch, but i know you do understand right? (: Thank you for being just so different. after that call, i was immediately snapped out of my lerthagicness. Wow, much refreshed. after lunch, i managed to finish all of my work for today and i'm feeling a sense of satisfaction. A feeling of something done to Honour Him, only.
On my way back home, I took out the book I brought out with me this morning. It's
"The Heavenly Man" given from pastor Shern. This is one of the book which really grasped my attention when I was wandering around Life Bookshop in Jurong point. Nevertheless, God send someone to get this for me! How wonderful our Lord can be. Thank you so much pastor Shern. I was pondering, will this book be a challenge for me? Because my english isn't of any standard. Haha. I can't imagine if like 75% of the words I'm reading, is those that I can't understand. Oh my, what am I'm gonna do? But praise the Lord, I still took the first step and open the magnificent book. From the preface, foreword and the introduction, I can see that this book wasn't as different as I thought it would be. It was wonderfully interesting, though some are profound but I still catch the meaning of it. (:
One of the line I love was this,
"It's not Great man who change the world, but Weak man in the hands of a Great God."Beautifully described isn't it? Heh. (:
This is my beautiful day. Can't wait for another day of tommorrow! It's
YOUTH CAMP AFTERGLOW tommrrow. Oh my, I'm seriously waiting for this day to arrive. Finally! Haha. Randomly, I miss Y
outh Camp again. ):
PS: Mummy bought me a addidas shorts and a nice straight cut jeans! Ohoh, Love mummy lots lots!!! Haha, it's really one of a rare time she gets something for me!! It's been so long.......!! Still, I love you mummy. (:I'm not ready. You ain't either.
hey! it's Christmas! haha, i'm late. but ya MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone. it's JESUS's Birthday!
simply love last night's candle light service. It was simply amazing. Never had imagine something like this before. Fabulous! the worship songs, the short preaching of pastor Shern, the enthuiasm of people streaming into Bethel, the joy and the laughters of people rejoicing in the house of God. The FOOD, though I didn't eat much. the photo takings, the giving out of cards! and many many more. haha. Thank GOD everything for what has came last night. It's just so fantastic! (:
One thing I ponder most was what paster Shern had said. What have YOU really done for JESUS this year? What were YOU doing on Christmas day? Sometimes we are simply too busy, or even too focused on the unneccesary stuffs instead of the most important thing in our life, GOD. We could be too focused on writing cards, spending the late nights rushing through all the cards, the decorations and thinking of a way on what to say or write to them. Actually I was wondering, is this how it should be done? Is this really what we should do? Spending the time serving the people instead of GOD. Did we neglect GOD, as we put too much time on the cards, forgetting that it wasn't the people's birthday instead of JESUS's? I'm quite curious, about those that did not write. Is it that they are more focused on GOD, that they wouldp rather not spend this time to write, or is it that they are simply too lazy to even write? There's always a two way side to think eh? How true. Maybe everyone has a reason for something. (:
PS: Thank You everyone for the cards. (:To LOVE or not to.BANANA out.
aiya i'm puzzled by why everytime I ask people for basketball games, they would ask me "who" is going, "who" is playing? Actually do we really need to care so much? Does it even matters so much who is playing or who isn't? I just don't get it. Sometimes I ask that question too, how come huh? Why are we asking that as the first question? Are we expecting that someone special to turn up and play, or are we not expecting someone who should not appear? Do we really know? Ask yourself this next time when you ask someone that question again. Maybe we should put ourselves in the shoes of the person organizing a game or something. Imagine if the organizer asks 20 people to come along and play basketball, and the 20 people asked the same question. "Who is going?" "Who is playing?" den how? Do you expect him to reply every single one of them the 19 people's name? He will take at least 1 hour to finish replying everyone lah. Think about it. How does it feel to be in that suitation? Not funny anymore right? Sometimes we tend to think it the easy way, but we never know how tough it is to even get started with. That is why I say playing alone is the best.
or maybe not alone, but with God.
edited : what is taught in youth camp? Slow to anger, abounding in Love.
Edited. My fault, shouldn't have started all these. Words still better left unsaid.
When The Music Fades. - Sonic Flood
When the music fades, all is stripped away.
everyone simply comes.
Longing just to breathe something that is worth that would bless your heart.
I will bring you more than a song for a song in itself
It's not what you have required
You search much deeper within through the way things appear.
You're looking into my heart....
I'm coming back to the Heart of Worship
It's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus.
I'm sorry Lord for the things I have made it.
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus.
King of endless worth
No one could express
how much you deserve
though I'm weak and old
all I have is Yours.
every single breath.
emmmm, it's all about You, JESUS!
~
Unfailing LoveKeeping my focus only on Jesus. He is only one that can grant me Love that no one could. What is Love in human-earthly world? What is so great about it? What is it that prevents us from the walk with Him, the Love that He is giving us? What is it that is so hurting, so depressing, so failing when we are talking about that in earth? It's mortal Love. It's never too good to be too indugled in it. It will only give us more ways to compromise with our Father up there. With the one and the only truthful God in Heaven.
Sometimes I wonder, how come I'm putting so much into this love relationships, how come I'm more focused on the mortal Loves, I mean as in those BGRs. Why didn't I notice that there is someone much more important, looking down at me wanting to catch hold of my attention? Why didn't I realise it sooner, which will cause all of these misery to not even grasp me. Why am I so foolish to not trust in God, to not rely on His timing. Why did I have doubts. I know I shouldn't, I have finally realised my mistake.
Too late? Sometimes I do wonder.
Only His Love is Unfailing. Ask yourself, does a Love put to a test would last forever? If it could, I don't mind trying.
His Angel~ weisheng
~Never expected things would turn out this way...~Never expected you would react this way...~Never expected you would be hurt so deeply...~Never expected you are so fragile...~Never expected you will cry for the whole night...~Never expected I would say those words...~Never expected I could be so selfish...~Never expected I am such a person with those facades...I guess everything wouldn't be the same anymore. That "feeling" is gone right? It has faded away i believe? Slowly day by day, each day sorrow and hurts keep haunting you. Your shadow doesn't even fits your ownself anymore. When you told me you couldn't find yourself anymore, I guess I've lost Myself too... Just like a walking zombie without his own shadow anymore. How did this happen? I couldn't find an answer to it too. I guess i shouldn't have known you in the first place, sometimes I do wonder. If you haven't have known me, things wouldn't have come to this point. I'm sorrry. Like someone said, Love is not letting your other-half be hurt... Never allowing her to shed a tear for you. Ah, I lost it. Everything seems to be set aplace. I always ask myself is this His will or is it just something that prevents us. I'm still not sure. It's so hard to explain. I don't even have a chance to speak to you. Guess you didn't even wanted to talk to me. My guess is I'm just thinking too much, assuming things that never had happened before. Now i know, you told me before that you do have feelings for him. Foolish Me. If i had known this earlier, things would be so different. We wouldn't be in such a dliemma. Or maybe I wouldn't be in such a patheic state. He is really better, how am I to compare with him? I do wonder. Maybe there wasn't a need to compare in the first place. He has never hurt you, nor made you cry. He has always been so good to you. Ahh, maybe it's time.*Suffering in Silence? NO, Cry out in Deseration.男人不该让女人流泪 - 苏永康
Thanksgiving.Just some few people to give thanks to.
Caleb Leng bro : Hey bro, it's really great to have you as my bro. I really thank God for His way of bringing us together as brother-in-christ. Seeing how He linked both of us into His kingdom, we already knew each other in our Sec school before, and now surprisely we are in the same church too~ It's not only just a concidence i guess, it's His works. It's really a blessing to have gotten to know you. You're such a nice person, committing yourself to God and His people, it really encourages me. To be more like Him. Thankyou brother, for everything, for making me so welcomed in Wefc. God will honour you heart. *and the plaster for my leg, thankyou so much. I really appreicate that. (=
Shun Bin bro : Hey u this brother ah, nothing to say lah. All i can say is you are too good to say anything for. Haha. Thankyou for always being there for me. Thankyou for spending that time always nevertheless talking to me, encouraging me, listening to my nagging. I really do appreicate this brotherhood. God really uses His people, you are really such an big impact in my life. Though it's always we two talking only, but I really learn alot from you, learn alot more about you. It's really a blessing to me, I want to step deeper into this Brotherhood. Sharing your burdens and problems, listening to you, praying for you. Thankyou Brother. You're more than an angel to me. (= (Try not to scold those words so much lah. Self-Control. 10 pumpings every word. haha.)
Benn bro : Hey brother, i know i'm at wrong when I didn't ask you in the first place, I feel very bad about it. I know what's done cannot be undone, but still I want to say I'm sorry, I'm really sincere about helping you, about sharing your problems and burdens with you. I know it's been hard on you lately, those mental and physical stress. I understand, I wish to help. I wish that we all can run this together, for Christ. Dear brother, all I can say to you is God is always there whenever you need Him, He never leaves nor forsakes you. And our brothers here will never do that too. We are here! (=
Thomas bro : Hey brother, know you weren't be reading this blog, but maybe just to assure myself that I'm very thankful for such a brother-in-Christ like you. You have always been so different, so uniquely different from the others. I cherish this brotherhood with you, and I want to grow deeper with you too, knowing your problems, sharing with you and praying for you. Though others may push you aside, though others may left you alone, but fret not my brother. We are here for you! rmb the fellowship we had, rmb the laughters, the joy. Nothing compares to Him. Why think about how others think about us? We live by Faith, not by Sight. If they judge, they will be judged back. *praying for you, running with you!
Mervin bro : Hey bro, know that u are having some problems too, but fret not too. We are always here for you too. Just let us know if u need any help. we would be gladly to help! Thankyou for those songs too, it really encourages me to be more like Him. It really encourages my walk with Christ. Thankyou for always being so willing to play bball with me, i guess u are one of the fews that played bball with me in the very first time I came church. Thankyou for being there, for welcoming me. I appreicate you for who you are. (=
Camp Committee : Thankyou guys for making this camp such an wonderful and enjoyable stay. It makes me wanna have camps everyday. haha. Without you guys, I guess there wouldn't even be a start at all, without you guys, i guess this isn't a camp anymore. Thanks God for all these people. God blesses.
Ah Jie : Hey mentor ah jie. Thankyou so so so much. I'm really glad to have you as my mentor. I'm really happy whenever I see you la. haha. You're really such a blessing to everyone. Thankyou so much for that very long prayer for me on omega night. You cried for me, you cared for me, you prayed for me. Where would I find anyone in this world that would cry for me, that care for me so much. Only you Jie. Thankyou Thankyou. praise the Lord almighty. (=
All the others that wrote cards, notes to me : Hey thankyou everyone that wrote encouraging cards/notes to me. etc, lim hong joy vera. Thankyou so much. I really appreciate it alot, though it may seems a small thing, but to me, it really meant ALOT and ALOT. I really am blessed to be in such a warm-hearted family. I feel so much in loved being with you all. Thank God and Thank you. (((=
Loves, by His unchanged Angel~
weishengg.
AHHHHH. YOUTH CAMP IS OVERRRR.
grrr. why so fast..... 5 days just gone like this. crap, i think i'm having post camp syndrome. aiyaaaa. though i know alot of ppl say this year's youth camp wasn't as fun as the previous years, but still I really enjoyed it. It was fun to me, though there were some areas that were not really up to expectations. But still, we don't live in expectations rmb? We live for Him only, worshipping Him alone. praise the Lord for making this camp such a blessing to everyone. I thankyou Lord, thankyou for camp commandant Jabez, asst camp commandant Edmund, peixian for her delicious foods, rachel for handling the moneys, Elliot(my fake-angel, but i like being with him.) for his logistics works, JIE for his worshipping and for praying for me on Omega Night, thankyou alot Jie. Jess for packing those prizes, and priscilla for her publicity. Thankyou everyone for making this camp such an enjoyable and meaningful camp. I really had great lots of fun.
Day 1 - Angel and Mortal, I get to know who is my mortal. It's Limmy, Lim Hong. Haha. It's good, she's a good mortal to me. she even gave me more than what my angel gave me lah. hahaha, though she wasn't here on monday cos she went bangkok, but still I thank God for this mortal. Heh.
- Game Axis, 4 stations of games. had great lots of fun. esp my first one was the acting-guessing game. Woo, Emily, Abel and me acted. den my other team mates were guessing. We guess 38 out of 40 lah. I tot we surely win aleady, but to our surprise, the other team got 39 out of 40 lah. Oh my, Haha. But still it was great. the worst thing abt these games are the siewmai passing game... GUYS rmb anot??? Hahaha. But still we had fun, joy and laughters (=
Day 2 - Operation paradise, Si Zhi Lu Kou. hahaa, run alot alot alot with our barang barangs lah. oh my, Jabez wanted us to carry all our lagguage and run around from Church to Chinatown, till SA Village lah. that was like so crazy man, super duper tiring after we reached at SA village. We played quite a few games too, walking on water and Dark room. and we get to spend the night in SA~ Woo~ first time i went SA and slept there lah, it was super good, cos only top 3 teams get to sleep in air-con room with BEDS. You heard that? AIR-CON ROOM with BEDS. HAHA. Dark room wasn't as fun as it should be. I was expecting more. haha, but still praise the Lord for it.
Day 3 - THE QUEST. haha, yea the quest was extremely tiring, but fun. guess i dont have to say everyone also knows what it is about right? If u dunno what it is about, let me know i explain to you. haha. cos alot to write, i'm getting lazy already. heh. but just ask me if u want to know ya. I can only say here that my team Andronicus WON. Wee, our mighty and ulitmate Warrior Dylan won the quest. hahaha. praise the Lord.
- Lounge Games, ahh this one is the worst i can say among my whole 5 days of camp. Cos maybe it wasn't went on as planned, or maybe it was too rush. It didn't go smoothly becos of quite some problems arises and we had to resolve it. It's no good. haha. But still, we manage to had some fun i guess. playing human pool table game, and jackpot. at first i tot jackpot was a game that cheats our money, but it had a deep meaning in the end, it says that no matter what we bet on, the House always wins. so DON'T GAMBLE. But.... the night was good becos I'm sleeping over at SA again. hahaha. air con with bed. yeahhhhhh. funniest thing was my brother shun bin and me. we sneak out of our room and went down to the open space to talk, crap, play till 2am+ hahaha. thankyou God for sending this brother to me, he is really awesome, God you are too.
Day 4 - Gear ourselves up and went back to church. but before that, we went to play Catching Tales. Oh my, this game is one of the nicest game I had played in thecamp. It really shows our unity, our teamwork, our strengths and our spirit to fight. Though i wasn't quite happy with the unfair play part, with Jabez and Mingjie but still I was reminded by God's words. He told us to be Slow To Anger, Abounding In Love. I really almost got into a fight with Mingjie, but i stopped. I knew it wouldn't do us any good. Thankyou God for the words that spoke through me.
- I guess day 4 is the best day for me in youth camp, becos maybe it is the last day. At night we had Omega Night, it was so so so great. the 1 min talk about a topic alone, the imitating act we had to perform. Rmb I was the prince okay. and the bob and the budduh... hahahaha. so cool right. hehehe. I love it so much. Thankyou Lord. Lastly was the worship and SK's testimony. SK's story was great, though everyone was very tired out by his long speech, i wasn't as i really believe his story. I understand his feeling, his acceptance thru Christ and his faith on Christ now. It's so strong like a mighty tower. Omega Night was the only time I really submit everything to God, I cried out so loudly, kneeling down putting my hands up high praising His name only. I really spoke to God. Thankyou God for revealing yourself to me. I praise and worship you eternally..... didn't slept for the whole night.
Last day - Ahh, so fast. How i wish it wasn't so fast. I am missing youth camp.... ahhhh. haha. okay ya last day was tidying up as usual, and we had brunch, meaning breakfast and lunch together. after that was prize giving ceremony. OH, my team Andronicus didn't get first placing... wasted, we were all along first place on day 1 to day 4, till i think day 4 we lost to Ampliatus at the imitating acts thingy. so wasted, we got second. but nvm, placing wasn't really important, what's important is how much have we learn from this camp, how much have we grow from it and thru it. Did we have a breakthrough? We have to ask ourselves. (= Ya we got our prizes and took group photos. lastly was the Angel and Mortal game. Haha, we finally get to know who our angels are. Yup I told Lim Hong i was her angel, she wasn't really shocked, cos all along she was guessing either her angel was Eric or Me. so ya, it wasn't really fun. haha. But still this was the first time in my life I had written so many cards to someone in 5 days lah. Haha, what a breakthrough. hehe. My angel was Grace, the younger one. dun really know who she was, but she is really one shy type. Thankyou thou. Yup, after that we went to take our bags and start rushing home, haha. i wasn't expecting everyone to rush home liddat lah, we didnt even shout our Group Cheer. so crappy lor, didnt even have debrief lah. but i guess everyone was really tired lah. and maybe our parents were waiting for them at home too. But still i went to play bball, i'm tired but still can play lah. haha.
The End. that was like a short and simple preview of my 5 days in Youth Camp. isn't it fun??? hahaha, guess those who didnt go were regretting it already. hahaha. oh ya i'm tired now too, i guess i have to go and sleep early too. I want to wake up early tml and give Thanksgiving to God. I really want to. actually i wanted to today at 5pm service, but i cant make it, so yup tml i will be. I have to thanks so so many things, i dont know where to start lah. haha. Oh ya tml i will be playing floorball. I will have a breakthrough. I wont play basketball anymore, till SFC is back again, till everyone is so enthu abt sports in ministry again. yeah, i want to be fair to everyone, to every sports. See ya guys tml. (=
Signing off, His changed angel. (=
YOUTH CAMP!!!!
YEAH! FINALLY THE TIME HAS COME! AND I WILL BE SETTING OFF IN 5 MINS! HAHAHA.
GOGO CAMP COMMANDANT!
GOGO CAMPERS!
GOGO ANDRONICUS!
GOGO WEISHENG!
NON CAMPERS! PLEASE PRAY FOR US!!! (=
IMITATIO CHRISTI! TO BE MORE LIKE JESUS! =D
I'm GOING OFF! SEE YA GUYS ON FRIDAY!
I MISS CAFE! )''=
hais. dunno why i just miss cafe life now. Haha. Though it was quite a short period of time I spend working there, but honestly I had quite a deep impression of the place. Those nights we spend kicking up a fuss in the cafe over the world cup thingy, those sleepless nights serving customers; though it was quite irritating, but I really had a great time there. Still can imagine that night I raise my voice to ask that guy get lost, how silly I was. Frankie bro, so sorry created so many troubles for you. Guess i really am not good enough. But still, praise the Lord. This is the place where I get to know Him and come into His kingdom. I really have so many, so many thanksgiving to so many and many people. Haha, write till tml also cannot finish lah. (= But cafe life was SO FUN. Those goals, laughters, shoutings. Oh my, how I wish this was not just an dream. Come on weisheng, wake up liao. dream over. Cafe no more. ))= NO MORE POOL!! AHHH. back to normal working life with a new surrounding, a new atmosphere, a new boss, a new working environment. How is it going to be like? I don't know, I don't want to know either. )= Time to Let GO, and LET GOD.
Maybe it's just the timing. Maybe it's time to leave. Maybe to somewhere far far away. Where nobody knows, or maybe nobody can find. 3 years later, I don't know. I might not be the same person anymore, I might not be the one you are looking for. But still, I don't want to break this bond, this promise. You told me not to wait, not worth it. But still, I will wait. You ask me why am I so good to you? I didn't know how to answer. But now I know, it's because God was so good to Me in the first place. My dear Friend, 3 years might be long, but I'm still counting, still fighting, still longing. -To Live With No Regrets.
I miss the time when we were playing pool...
